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Lost

2011-11-19T00:14:00.003+08:00

I assured myself that i would never be back playing dota again since my decision to quit was very firm! Never thought i would be back playing, i'm still finding the passion i had for dota which seems to disappear ever since then. Somehow i'm still searching for a reason/ feel to play on..

I really hate being a burden srsly maybe its time to put in more effort..

ahhh..

Hopefully i don't burden them so stressful right now "(

Good Luck tml <3

Kept me thinking..

2011-05-11T02:58:00.004+08:00

Everything seems a lil happy for me right now expect Dota..

It kept me thinking if i should put in some effort to train up & play properly. Somehow i seems to lost the motivation to play on, it seems that even playing for fun doesn't suit the category of friends i'm playing with.. The joy of playing seems to vanish..

I should probably just stop playing, play so xinku & burden others for what lol yet Dota is still something i enjoy & its best to pass time..

Tired of whiner
Tired of being a noob..

ahh damn burden now..

Why can't things be a lil simple..

Couldn't stand it how some people can slowly becoming a snob..
Sometimes it kept me thinking between r/s & dota only one survival..

Nothing seems to makes me happy now.. Sleep

Blank

2011-04-25T01:12:00.003+08:00

I can longer be truthfully to myself..
Trying to forget all those unhappiness every time an argument starts yet i fail to do so..
Trying hard to appear happy at the same time being forgetful..
Hoping everything will go away..
I don't know..
I'm tired..
I wanne cry..

You will probably just ignore..

When all i left to say is that its slowly showing..

Dead blog back !

2011-04-12T00:36:00.003+08:00

YEAH MY DEAD BLOG IS BACK !

It's been so long since i wanted to reorganize my life, have been slacking way too much..
It's time to change..

Back then i chose to run away from problems when it arise, i didn't have the courage to climb up from where i fall maybe the fall was just too painful.
I might have taken a very long period of time to finally face the fact and deal with the problem..

Being less ji jiao in life makes u a happier person :D

Job interview tml so looking forward to it somehow..
Hope everything turns out good..

6th November is the title !

2010-11-06T08:16:00.003+08:00

Decided to head down to C.A.S to watch XTC games and Hengky was nice enough to fetch me & Alan over.. I only watched 1/2 of the game & went off to dota with os, nagi, & lostforce..

Playing with them simply brings lots of laughter despite being tired!
Lesson learnt: Never let Os draft but nvm he still owe us 2meals each...

Had Frog porridge for supper with loy & Hengky..
Mei you chao la bu hao chi & its quite sad i'm eating only plain porridge cause he don't wanne let me order my veg.. Must blame !!

Didn't sleep cause i got addicted to zombie vs plant.. Super fun la but i need the full version *Desp*
cb lor few hours ago i was laughing at Os for playing this stupid game end up i'm addicted.. Bwg!!

Need to travel down to Sim Lim for his speakers & food fair later on for my CRAVING!!
Wee~ Food nve fails to make 1 happy..

A little something for that special someone who might nve know. . .

You are 1 out of a million
Because you are amazing
Just the way you are
Cause your smile
Makes my world stops & stare for awhile
Wishing that this moment would last forever

Will this forever come true? ~

Quit Quit Quit !!

2010-11-05T00:36:00.006+08:00

I lost my interest in blogging sometimes i felt like i'm blogging for the sake of it..
At the same time there are some stuff not appropriate to blog about neither did i wanne talk about it unless i felt like it.. lol !

After so much had happen i felt its best to keep everything to myself, time to /mute everyone. Maybe i lost faith maybe it just happen too often over & over again..
My quietness is back like how I am few months back maybe i didn't really wanne talk much to anyone but i will reply if u pm haha.. That's already slightly better then few months ago..

I still had passion for dota but its time i wanne stop playing competitive..
It's for real this time.. lol
Playing for fun still the best whereas there's no stress & responsibility..
I'm just too noob ".)

Need some dota kakis to pei wo dota !!
Back to my world..

I still misses you ~
Bye~

Weekend

2010-10-11T04:45:00.006+08:00

Saturday -

Went down to Colo to play a few warm up games with the girls before heading down to Cineleisure for dotasg compy athough we didn't win but it was not bad since we didn't even train much Lol.. I did a terrible mistake, i hope no 1 saw =x LOL!!

Went down to CAS to watch XtC ADC games but bth jitao felt asleep through out the games cause i didn't sleep the previous day T_T tired ttm!

His sweet enough to bring me for supper before heading home.. ^^

Sunday-

Overslept & missed their game against 444 but glad that they won them..
They gotten 2nd for the compy.. Continue to jia you ba xtC !!

We spent like $10 trying to kiap this small toy, end up he kiap bu dao the person gave it to us lol.. SERIOUSLY HENGKY U SUCKS!!

After everything all of us went over to the Hong Kong Cafe for dinner, ordered chicken chop which was really good but the portion of the fries is ownage lol.. Most of them left and Hengky, Lux, Loy & me so ended up we chat for hours about Dota!! haha~
Later on he send me home.. Thanks ^^

I'm gonna cut my hair like FINALLY!! with that noob, hopefully i have enough for me to touch up my colours..

Going off to Thailand in 2days times.. wee~

Tired of all the nonsense

2010-10-08T04:02:00.002+08:00

Gonna blog about something that have been on my mind all this while..

If there's a chance to start all over i guess i wouldn't want a friend like you perhaps there are just too much stuff that happens, too much disappointed i see in you.. It always seems like there are so many different characters when you are with different people.. Which is the real you?

There are some people no matter how long or how close you guys might be whenever it involves love things changes. I have to admit I used to be like that but seriously it just pissed me off big time, if something ever goes wrong don't turn back & ask me to be there for u.. fk off~

Ever since that period i given up everything on dota, thinking that maybe quitting is the best yet i came back playing after months later to realise certain things when its lost, it will never recover no matter how much effort you put in.. I'm tired of trying all by myself, its always being me putting in effort yet achieve nothing.. Maybe its time to really quit & play for leisure since its not gonna work..

Maybe I'm fated to be a loser..

Tired of explaining whom i'm blogging about, just don't ask will be appreciate..

GOODBYE EMO WELCOME HAPPY!!

2010-10-07T03:36:00.003+08:00

GOODBYE EMO WELCOME HAPPY!!

YES!! u didn't read wrongly neither did you click the wrong blog ^^
The only time i would be emo would only be cause of game.. haha

IT'S BEEN 3MONTHS & I'M FINALLY BACK !! hehe ^^

So much had happen during the past few months, i nearly couldn't pick myself up it felt as if its the end of the world.. Kua Zhang but true oki3 lol..
At that point of time no1 can understands how i felt even i don't know how to help myself.. Regrets on my stubbornness that the price to pay is just too big.. I lost alot & a close friend.. T_T
Back then if i have the chance to choose again, i would never walk this path again cause u don't worth it =)

I have learn alot during this period of time & somehow certain things have change my view & character anyway i wanne thank those who had been by my side, u know who u are!!
XIE XIE NI MEN.. Thanks for listening to me WHINE almost every single night.. Love u all !

I wanted to apologise to this really close friend of mine, I'm sorry that i know u tried to help me but yet i couldn't control my emotion well enough, everything u had done for me will always be appreciated & never forgotten.. xie xie ni ~
[Anw i hope he knows I'm talking about him & forgive me]

There are just too many typical guys that likes to por especially that someone that pissed me off with stupid excuses its just plain POR not much is needed to explain.. Even though i know you are like that but i didn't know you are 1 of the worst lol.. Just fk off seriously..

I'm rather emotional playing with the peeps that i didn't like, not all but just 1.. I'll rather play myself even though i hates it but at least i'm happier..

Will update again about some old post which i would like to update long ago..
1 of this days i need to change my blog skin !!

Arghhh

2010-07-05T22:26:00.005+08:00

July 3 [Saturday]

Woke up rather early that day & i thought i was late so cab down to realise i wasn't even close to late.. Arghh waste my $ cab down..

CGF & lost to Eterry's team
Went out with Hengky to watch "Ip Man the legend is born", somehow i still prefers the other Ip Man show.. Xiao Long Bao before movies.. =)

He sent me home and we had supper after that.. Thanks..

Thanks Cloud for the bear bear ^^

Slept the whole day yesterday as i wasn't feeling well due to my leg -.- sucks!!
Have to stay home for the rest of the days.. Arghhh i wanne go out TT

To make things worst my spec spoils, somehow my eyes hurts whenever i put on my lens & when i walk i can only limp..
My life sucks =\

I know its time i should let go yet I'm still holding on for whatever reasons that only my heart can explain, it hurts a lot yet i didn't wanne let go.. What should i do? for the reality speaks otherwise.. I can only hope for a miracle..
If i ever hurt any of you, i just wanne say I'm sorry..

Hmm.. somehow i wanted to say that i still cherish this friendship between us no matter what had happen..

A lil dream which is my only motivation to carry on what i love..
I can only hope for the best.. ^^

June ~~

2010-07-01T00:21:00.020+08:00

I finally found the mood to blog once again, shall update everything that happen this few weeks..

Wee~ I'm so happy today cause i just paid my stuff.. Hehe This few weeks had been really sinful cause i shop way too much and i still wanne shop TT cause shop > emo and its working!!

Recently my sleeping time seems to adjust back to normal as in NORMAL, waking up early seems to make me feels good but somehow it seems to be rather boring..
Fb games has been rather addictive..
Had been playing lesser dota and life has been a lot more happier now without all the pressure.. I thought this 1 month would be rather hard to pass by yet without realizing it, its already July..

Emotionally there are just so much that happened without your knowledge, i came to realize a lot of things i can actually do it instead of not trying after all its just a matter of choice/time. I have been slowly immune to a lot of things which i never understand yet i wouldn't be bothered much anymore perhaps its slowly changing for the worst or the better.. I don't know..

I just wanne say that I'm not strong as u think I am..
No matter what happens memories are something u wouldn't forget for the rest of ur life..

Firstly I wanne wish my AIAI HAPPY BIRTHDAY! becoz i forgot =( even after she hint me.. Hope u enjoy your holiday & had fun =) Love u!!

July 1 [ Thursday]

Hengky came to fetch me and we went JP for dinner @ my favourite jap restaurant
[Kuishin Bo], disappointed as it may sounds as the food quality drops a lot & no lobster cause i miss it =\ luckily the seafood is still alright so overall i still ate a lot.. Thanks for your treat ^^

Saw 1 of my teacher from my previous school, was surprise he still remembers me lol..
Went to the arcade before going off to watch Triple Tap, it was rather a long movie but not bad its more like a mind game kinda show.. Won some discount thing to Sg Flyers lol.. and went to ECP after that..

Cute Prawn

June 27 [Sunday]

Went out with my parents to shop @ Orchard, didn't really shop much cause i sprain my foot and its still quite painful right now TT
End my day with my favourite Teri Tama!! Happy ^-^

June 26 [Saturday]

Slept for 3hrs and woke up @ 7am despite waking up so early I'm still late, so cab again TT
I didn't play well once again & perhaps thinking wise is slight different.. so no emo ^^ B.K for breakfast and went to chill @ Starbucks till their friend went off to school..

Shopping with Cass, Esther & Cloud was fun but somehow shows that I'm not like a girl cause i only manage to buy 1 skirt & some nail polish.. lol
Poor Cloud have to shop & carry all the stuffs for us =( Thanks!!
I still owe u movie!!
Dinner @ Din Tai Fung, saw Valerie & her cute baby..
Xiao Long Bao ftw!!
Let's go again soon, I'm already craving for it =\

Really no more heels when i shop, my legs nearly break TT

June 25 [Friday]

Went out with my mum to J.P to shop, didn't realized there are so much to shop and we freaking shop for 8hrs LOL!!
Meet up with my dad and had our dinner @ Thai Express!!
Tom Yam & Watermelon + Lime is Love!!

June 24 [Thur]

I remember that day was raining cats & dogs and despite having an umbrella i still get wet -.- waste my time doing my hair TT

Anyway meet up with Cloud, Fm & Xigua @ Causeway Point for Toy Story 3!!
The movie was so good that it nearly made me cry, so touching!!
Maybe becoz I'm a soft toy lover that's way lol..
Dinner @ Sake Suki.. Fk!!
That guy that serves us requires to check our IC cause there are student & adult rates, so the 3 of them show theirs and he turn to ask me, i jitao tell him i overage LOL..
It's ok i still look young Haha!

Sorry that I'm late!!

June 18 [Friday]

I thought i was already quite late yet Hengky was even worst so the 3 of us went to shop around Bugis & Jubeat. I still have the video of Esther playing!! Dinner @ Thai Express, Thai food is love!! Surprisingly u actually eat tom yam! haha..

Watched A-Team, a really good movie but seriously iluma is always freaking cold, even jacket & scarf isn't enough lol.. I think must wrap like mummy the next time!!
Thanks for sending me home =) & i hate u 2 psk!!
End the day with Esther been very irritating!!

June 15 [Tuesday] Scam by my parents to the IT fair but I'm glad the day ended with a good one cause i finally change my stupid phone.. Hehe
Samsung Wave is Love..

June 12 [Saturday]

I actually forgot what happened that day but i manage to find out!! Haha! WCG with the girls against Ly Team and its broadcast =\ well my draft failed & i didn't play well either so its emo.com. I will emo whenever i didn't play well not because i lose the game lol..
Thanks aiai for helping us to play.. Anw all of you did a good job ^^

After WCG went out with Esther, Cloud, Wan, Fm, Ruby..
Esther & Cloud was playing enjoying themselves playing jubeat while the rest of us were gossiping, can u imagine guys also gossip lol..

Watched Karate Kid, its kinda long winded [2hr 30mins] and we were supposed to go down lvl up but its already midnight so we went to C.A.S instead..

Esther spotted Wan looking at girls on fb so she tag this @ his fb : AH BING GE GO FB FIND GIRLS RIGHT? You guys should go search for that post it's freaking imbal..
That night was insane: Bm opp espcially wan + mass spam his fb! + crazy me! I didn't know what gotten into me that night, while the others which i didn't know shouted, eg. KILL THE SF in a very ji-dong way, i replied them and its not once but for a very long period of time while i'm playing dota not against them LOL..

Ok la at least i entertain those people @ the lan =<> ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Cloud, Mushi & Hengky,
Thank you for being there whenever i needed someone and never fail to brighten my day, no amount of thanks are enough especially cloud for helping me with everything, I'm grateful.. ^^

Was really disappointed with the news i received last night, if you had told us the truth instead of making up excuses it would have been a lot better, after all that had happened this is what we deserved? Bwg..

Recently there are a bunch of idiots tagging nonsense once again, well if u don't like my blog why bother to even read it.. Fking joke...
Try harder if u wanne make me emo it's not
working.. Haha!!

Hengky- | This month = WC + DOTA lol !! says: babyheng xiaoheng chaoheng hengheng Hengky(leader) hehe=x <----- [See this stupid hengky]

Anyway good luck to everyone playing CGF tml ^^
Lastly i wanne say something before i end my post..

You were like a gem so special, so pretty yet so rare, even if i manage to keep it somehow it wasn't even mine to begin with..
why do tears feel like falling..

最后一次

2010-06-10T07:03:00.014+08:00

可能有一天我会让自己从这个夢里醒过來。。。

可能有一天我会让自己放下我最不原意放下旳事。。。

可能我已经知道结果, 可是我不想睡醒也不想放弃。。。

不了解我旳人只看见表面, 明白我旳人会懂我旳心。。。

你有真旳用心去了解吗?

如果有一天我放弃了。。。
我不会哭因为我已经尽量了也不会在让自己再次受伤害。。。

希望有一天这个夢会改变把 ^^
不管有多么困难我也会加油旳。。。
未來旳事沒人会知道。。。
这是最后一次, 我不想再说了。。

放心我不是不开心或情緒化只是想把内心里旳话说出来。。。

最后

我会让自己每天過旳很开心。。。

Anti- missing pills

2010-06-05T17:25:00.003+08:00

Start the day off with fever, headache & irritated seriously sucks -.-
Seldom blog twice in a day but I'm happy that everything is back to normal =) As in everything ^^ Thanks for telling me everything..

Words are beyond description to how much i miss you, even to just see you for a min I'm already content.. That''s how much i miss you..
At the same time i can't help but hate you for occupying my mind every single day & night..

I miss you~ How!!

TT Hais..

TT

2010-06-05T03:01:00.007+08:00

Meet up with cloud for dinner at P.S and went to catch the movie "Prince of Persia".
P.o.p was great but somehow i thought the ending was otherwise..
The Theater was freaking cold even jacket wasn't enough to keep myself warm TT
Headed down to C.a.S and saw Cass there, i no longer loves u cassy cause u laugh at me =(
Pei her wait for cab and home sweet home..

Thanks for the dinner & lan =)

Was quite upset after i received your msg, i didn't know i actually still cause hurt to you. I'm sorry.. You were always around whenever i needed someone but not anymore =(, i just wants u to know i cherish this friendship alot perhaps after all ur still someone that understands me the most.. Whatever happens in the future take care of yourself and i'll always be around whenever u need me.. I hope u will find back the You that u lost in the past..
Jia you ba!!

1mth more =(

=)

2010-06-04T03:41:00.009+08:00

Somehow after what happened few days ago seems to finally knock some sense into me.. Maybe all this while i have been trying way too hard that my brain & heart seems to suffocate, at the same time causing hurt not only to myself but to people who cares & loves me especially baby and you.. Thanks for not giving up on me =)

You are always there whenever i needed someone, without complaining how bad my attitude was yet u never fails to cheer me up!! A million thanks for everything u had done for me~~
I'm really grateful!!

That period of time had been really terrible its like the darkest time of my life everything seems to be only BLACK, alot of confusing feelings which causes me to be really emoified and lost. Others may not understand why!! But nvm about that everything is over le..

Life has been a lot more happier now after learning how to let go certain things although there are still some things which i can't totally let go now but i'm still trying my best to..
Day by day its gonna be better and soon it will all be over i believe..

I'm really held back by my past so much that i have never learn how to make myself happy yet it took me so many years to realized.. Pathetic it may sound...

This is for you baby:

If loving you is wrong,
then I don't wanna be right.
In my world of darkness,
you came in and showed me the light.
When the nights grew cold,
you were there to keep me warm.
You showed me how to love,
and kept me safe from the storm.
You created a special place in my heart,
one that no one could replace.
I miss everything about you,
and long for your sweet embrace.
The way you used to kiss me,
the way your face would glow.
The flood of emotions I felt,
every time you let me go.
I've never felt something so powerful,
I know my love is true.
Your touch warms me up inside.
Your words makes my heart beat faster.
Your kiss melts me.
I love you.
Will always love you.
Even when I'm gone.
You'll always be the only one in my heart.

Ending here =)

Love is a noble act of self-giving, offering trust, faith, and loyalty. The more you love, the more you lose a part of yourself, yet you don’t become less of who you are; you end up being complete with your loved ones.

Sometimes we just smile to cover up the pain. Sometimes we intend to laugh to cover up the hurt. But whether we smile or laugh, we can never hide what we really feel inside, but life has to go on.

=)

2010-05-26T20:22:00.009+08:00

Love Gingy

Rot home for a week plus and finally I went out today~

We intended to meet up at Cathay for movie but end up she's late so we went over to Cine to watch the non 3D Shrek, brought the combo which consists of popcorn, drinks & meat balls, its been years since i last ate popcorn, the meat ball was really horrible seriously..
Thanks for accompanying me to watch again..

Shrek never fails to make me love this movie more and more although this time round Gingy scene was rather lil and HIS EATEN BY THE CAT TT poor Gingy =(
If only such love story happens in real life, it's so hard to find such people who would actually fight for their love no matter how difficult it is..

Went to lan and slack for awhile while waiting for Hengky to come down and meet us up for dinner, xiao ming joined us and we went to Newton to eat, really miss those bbq food but yet the food is terrible and once again Esther is irritating, SLAP HER PLS SOMEONE..

Thanks for sending me home =)

When i thought everything was being left behind yet from the very start i didn't even once left.. Some things just comes so naturally that even I'm quite surprised is it cause I'm used to it?
I no longer knows what right's anymore..
Maybe it's time to face the reality although its painful but yet certain things just isn't meant to be i guess? I don't know..

An answer to the key is all i need, time will tell and i hope i made a right one..

Somehow this song speaks a lot of what really happened that kept me crying few days back..

Anyway i got kinda irritated by this typical guy who think his so god damn pro seriously fk off, u think u aim me so much in game I'm gona emo? Haha~ i wouldn't even be bothered about jokes like you.. Don't fking come act hi.. Fk off..

Something funny:

[c=48][F]irewaterearthlygold[M]etal- -ןɐʇǝ[ɯ]pןoƃʎןɥʇɹɐǝɹǝʇɐʍǝɹı[ɟ] {dead}[/c] says:
UR MSN NICK
LIKE WRONG LEI
U DUN TINK SO?

xGongZu- | [20:13:14]Nyuk: u damn stupid <-Firemental TT says: nope what's wrong? its normal what LOL~

o.o

2010-05-24T21:20:00.003+08:00

Shouldn't be feeling this way yet i can't help it..

WHY!!!

Perhaps "SHE" is just another typical girl but yet everyone is so blinded by her so call good side especially guys.. Bth!!

You are simply like the lil sheep waiting to be eaten, how i wish u would believe me if i told u so..

I'm feeling much better after talking out almost everything with you..
I'm glad after all u did notice..

Yeah i know i have been em0-ing really badly for this 1 week, thanks for all the concern =) especially you for being there to let me whine every night..

The higher the hope u had, the greater the hurt will cause when u fall..
Somehow i should learn how to think with my brain not my heart but yet this uneasy feeling seems to be back, telling me i should just distance myself in fear of something that might repeat itself..

Feeling rather easily irritated today i should just slack around instead..
After all i just wanne accompany u if u allow me to..

Random

2010-05-23T07:25:00.005+08:00

The only way now is to numb myself into dota..

Whatever it is..

It's better this way..

What would life be if we never met?

Bu zhi dao wo zhi dong wo ai ni

2010-05-22T04:26:00.020+08:00

Mei ci wo hen xiang zuo yi xie dong xi, zhi xi wang ni hui kai xin ke shi wei ser mo mei ci hun lai de zhi shi, shi wang he bu kai xin..
wo hai ke yi zuo ser mo nei?

Wo zhen de hen ai ni lian wo zhi ji ye bu dong wei he zhe mo ai ni.
Man Man de fa xian yuan lai wo de kai xin he bu kai xin dou shi zai ni shou de na ji qu hua li mian lol, ke neng wo zhen de tai ai ni le ba bu dong shi hao hou bu hao..
Ke neng ba ai qing kan de tai zhong bu jian de shi jian hao shi..

Wo xuan zhe le gen ni zai yi qi jiu zhi dao hui bu yi yang ye hui hen nan ke shi mei guan xi ah, zhi shi bu dong you xie dong xi wei ser mo jiu bu ke yi gen bie ren yi yang nei =\
Wo zhen de hen xiang zhi dao wo zai ni xin li dao di shi ser mo..

Hen duo dong xi wo zhen de bu neng li jie, hao duo dong xi wo zhen de hen bu xi guan, bu shi ying gai shi zhe yang de ma =\ wo hui man man xi guan ba wei le ni..
Ser mo dou hao wo ye hui qian jiu ke neng zhi yao fa fa lao shao jiu shi mei le ba..

Mei tian dou wen zhi ji hao duo hao duo ge wei ser mooooo lol.
Hao xiang yong yuan dou bu hui you da an..

Ke neng ai qing hui ran yi ge ren gai bian hen duo, lian zhi ji chong lai mei zuo guo de dong xi ye tu ran hui qu zuo zhi xi wang ta kai xin. Ai qing jiu shi you zhe ge mo li ran ren bian de hen sha bu liao jie de ren zhi hui xiao bie ren na mo sha, ke shi dang ni yu dao ni zhen xin xi huan de ren de shi hou, ser mo dou bian de hen bu yi yang le..

Wo lun ru he ni zai wo xin li hai shi zui hao de, ye shi wo ke qu dai de..
Zhen de hen xiang nian ni zer mo ban TT

Wo bu shi emo zhi xiang fa fa lao shao..

Kan bu dong jiu bu yao wen wo xie le ser mo..

=\

2010-05-16T22:47:00.008+08:00

Finally I'm gonna blog since my internet is damn laggy now -.- Hais

Gonna update about what happen this 2 weeks..

6th May

Meet up with Tmn & Esther for dinner cause the others were late. Watched Ipman 2 =) Thanks for coming down =) Thanks for the bird nest but somehow i feels damn auntie to receive such gift.. Thanks for your card too =)

Thanks for being there at 12am and all the presents =)

7th May

Went down to KL & someone late lor!! lol.. Meet up with him and had dinner at night with his friends.. Thanks baby for the flowers & everything..

8th-12th

Hmm.. Lan + shop + movies
Furry Vengeance is really nice =)
Had dinner with his family on Mother's Day..

Although Mother's day is over I just wanne tell my mummy i love her a lot and thanks for everything..

14th May

Meet up with Esther, Fm & Cloud to Sim Lim to repair my com like finally =X and went to watch Robin Hood. The show was rather draggy but its still worth watching even though its a 2hr 30mins show Lol. Tmn came down to meet us up for dinner and your house DAMN FAR CAN T_T

15th May

Meet up with the girls and I'm glad we don't have to eat Mos Burger again! Lol!
Thanks for the present girls =) Love u all!

That's all

Weird

2010-05-11T21:09:00.005+08:00

I'm suppose to be very happy but somehow i had this really weird feeling that's stopping me maybe I'm just not used to it i suppose..

I forgotten how to appreciate simple things which I'm learning now..

Maybe certain things i should really think twice?

Don't Know..

I hope he loves me that's all..

Shall blog more when I'm back tomorrow..

Hmm meanwhile..

I love u baby ^-^

^-^

2010-05-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

Everything don't seems right today =\

First i went out to buy some ingredient and end up being drenched.

Secondly i trip over Tang dao my hands -.- not once but twice.. wtf is wrong man!

I'm quite amaze at certain things i did, i used to be so dependent on others but now I'm slowly learning to be independent cause I'll be on my own from now on..

Went over to KL for 4days 3 nights last week..

Somehow the feeling of meeting up a stranger seems to be excited & weird at the same time.
He went to fetch me and we went to eat donuts which i had been craving for months. lol

Esther came over to meet us up, shop + lan + movies for the next few days but end up we didn't buy much. Although she is so irritating that i wanne slap her face at times but i still ♥ her =)
Ironman 2 is really a big disappointment =/

I finally found out what causes me to be so emoified this few days but well somehow i sort it out already =)

Perhaps this few days i just wanne be left alone doing things that i want..
Sorry if i choose to ignore whoever it may be, i just wanne enjoy my birthday ^-^

I love the way u smile..

The way u hold my hand..

The way u look at me..

The way u fall asleep..

I ♥ U ^-^

Will update once i feel like again, lots to update.. ♥

The last straw

2010-04-28T11:43:00.002+08:00

When A told someone about this..
When B told someone about this..

Somehow the story version seems to be different, who should u actually trust?!
What if everyone only seen the good side of you..
What if everyone only hear the good side of you..

Who can actually judge wtf really happen instead of just hearing the story from 1 side?!

If you are close friends with A & B then i would say you have the rights to.

You can tell the whole world how fked up, how cb i am or how good you are. I don't care!!
It doesn't matter how others judge me all that matters is people that actually
understand & cares for me.
You guys wanne talk behind my back why not just come face to face to ask me, if you even fking dare to instead of just bs-ing.

This is the last straw..
I had enough!!
I think i had been rather nice to you already for this few months but yet every single week, u MUST emo me for days and its already not the first time your doing this to me.
You know how xinku i am anot?! Do you truly know?!
Who can actually truly understand how emoified you get..
No one knows expect for me..

In life there are alot of setbacks & problems but yet u have to learn how to face the problem instead of running away, no matter what you have to solve it somehow isn't it? Instead of dragging on you shld learn to face and accept the fact.
It's time you should learn how to..

I have been thru alot more then any of you can think of, if i can live thru this 22years there isn't anithing that can't be solve.. I had tio too much drama in life so you better don't push your luck too far, i can be petty nasty if things turn out that way..

If i had choosen to ignore you, i just hope you learn to respect it.
Maybe by then we might still be able to be friends when time pass on..

When you been thru so many r/s yet everytime it seems to turn out the wrong way u expected it to be, heartache are the only company u had & i really hate that feeling.
The fears towards r/s still hunts me but i still hope to attempt 1 last try just for you..

^-^

2010-04-26T03:53:00.004+08:00

Yesterday meet up with Esther, Sherica, Nagi, Tmn & Mushi for lan.
We sort of having training but yet i seems to be the only 1 that is anyhow-ing and emoing lol..
Sorry about that..

Well.. we gotten 4th for the compy today, very enjoyable but seriously i'm damn noob! lol..
Woohoo first time of my life i didn't sleep for 2days + and i still manage to play compy and the best part of it is that i seriously don't know what am i doing through out all the games..
After compy went home straight to nap awhile but i'm still feeling tired now..

Jiayi: Bake Piyo biscuits for me can?

Me: Bake Suxkura biscuits easier

jiayiz lim zzz really.. 仆街 says (4:31 AM):
too big 不美观，吃了也很恶心

LOL!

To that someone:

Will you let me be the 1 that u will hold on for the rest of ur life?
I love you ^-^

Pictures speaks a thousand word

2010-04-18T22:27:00.012+08:00

EPIC PIC OF THE DAY~

Happy 18th Birthday Seabear~

Red Vs Black

More picture @ FB~

sux!

2010-04-16T20:20:00.006+08:00

Went to do my hair but somehow the fringe seems quite short and the colour rather bright.. =/

Ahhhh~ Why are you always so nice to me maybe way too nice that I'm feeling so guilty yet i can't do anything in return for you..

Am i being selfish!?

I was blogging half way thinking of all the things you said just now and yet again thanks for pissing me off, you should know how much i hate it when people assume things.. Can't i even be tired and not talk?!

Words are easily said but how true can that be? If it's so true i suppose i wont be feeling so empty.. Action simply speaks louder then words..

Maybe all this is just another illusion..

2weeks!!

Happy wee~

2010-04-14T02:48:00.007+08:00

Late again as usual =x

Sushi with Cass, Esther,Cloud,Fm at Cineleisure~
Thanks for the treat Cloudbu remember to claim from blackie ur share oki3 lol..

Caught "'How To Train Your Dragon"
Toothless is really CUTE!!
How i wish i had a pet like that =/

Went over to C.A.S after movies and play 2games but sadly cloud need to zhao first~
Sorry arhh make you guys wait for me so long =/
Thanks Jason for the Lan Treat =)

Today is the day where everything start afresh..
I'm really happy today although there are certain things that makes me upset but I'm oki3 now..

No matter what happens in the future you will always be that special friend to me, countless of thank you and countless of sorry for making you emo + lose.. But still THANKS!
I'm glad i didn't lose a friend =)

Thank You guys for being there for me when I'm so lost..
The darkest time of my life makes me realized who my true friends are..
Although this isn't something really major but it meant a lot to me..
Love you all~ =)

* Hair > Me * that's something i will remember for life!! Hair more important! Hais~
Guys ai mei really> Girls
I think you know who I'm referring to...

SO HAPPY CAN ^-^ loves

Something really meaningful: (Read oh~)

如果你和你的他/她分隔两地，请不要放手。哪怕你承受着很痛苦的思念，哪怕每天晚上都会睡不着！只要你坚持了！那么你将拥有别人没有的幸福！珍惜现在所拥有的才是你应该做的事。他/她不希望等来的是空白！有些事物等失去了，再回头就已经没有了。当你发觉他\她是多么爱你、对你多重要的时候，再回头说“对不起”就已经晚了，不是每句对不起都能换来没关系的… “执子之手，与子谐老”分隔两地的...

:'(

2010-04-12T04:32:00.007+08:00

I thought I'm strong enough but yet tears just flows down..

Why did u have to remind me all this...

I'm really extremely upset today really hope ur here =/

Wo ser mo dou bu yao le..

Headache -_-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6guFUeCV9hQ&feature=player_embedded#

The last time~

2010-04-12T00:22:00.003+08:00

The hurt u have caused isn't a 1day thing its something which accumulates over the years and the funniest thing was that u didn't even know there's a problem all this years.. I wonder why i used to get upset every night because of you..
I really wonder~

All the lies u have been making up to fu yan wo yet only after 2yrs u realize its really time to change but did u even know that it's too late ?

If there's no trust nothing really matters..
Some things gou le jiu shi gou le zhen de hen nan zai hui dao nan gou qu..
It's never gonna be the same again anymore~

This will be the last time I'm crying for you again..

=(

2010-04-11T08:26:00.010+08:00

I MISS YOU

YES YOU

ONLY YOU!!!

Didn't sleep well the previous day due to all the renovation outside my house and woke up with a really bad headache so didn't went bowling with Esther & Cass.. Sorry =(

Esther seems to hate me for scamming her bowling & pepper lunch.. lol

Woke up in the evening and went out to meet Esther before heading down to Funan. Had our dinner at Pasta Mania but the pizza we ordered like kinda salty and the drink quite sweet -.- ahh~ Sub-Way is a NO!! NO!!

Lose the compy to some people that i didn't really like although quite sian but somehow i wasn't emo at all just that i feels that i deprove a lot.. Seriously its time to train and stop slacking!! =/ Need some motivation lor~
Rm 4 shi ma.. oki3!!

Don't really have the mood to go home so went to lan with Esther, Cloud & Fm to C.A.S but somehow my mood = sian..
Wee~ damn happy they accompany me to eat the bean curd i have been craving for quite awhile.. =)

As usual this Esther drag me to eat with her, sux lor i don't know to love you or hate you!! Later on the 3 of them PS me and went home.. Hais!! Luckily Tmn came down to accompany me & we play till morning before heading home.. Its really nice to have people accompany you home instead of being alone..

Plenty of things running through my mind now.. Ahh~

Maybe it's time for me to really move on and learn how to handle things on my own instead of being so dependent on others.. There's something else that I'm looking forward too and its about time i change my life style too~

Somehow i feel so helpless at time but at the same time.. I'm HAPPY!! =) Hehe..

Can you stop making me emo every single time you talk to me?! Every time i have to use a really good attitude to talk to you in order not to let you emo but yet you never once consider about my feelings. I know there are certain things that causes you to be lidat but I have feelings too and i just can't stand it any longer.. It's not the first time already~ Hais what have i done to deserve this..

I didn't really wanted to talk about this but maybe can kinda clear up some misunderstanding or whatever impression I'm giving..

It's not that i don't like you or I'm showing you some attitude its just that i don't like to socialize with people I'm not close with so usually i will just give a very dao attitude be it online or real life. The only time you see me talk nonsense will be with those people I'm comfortable with.. I'm like that so if you can't take it just fk off i don't really care anyway.. Some people said I'm rather arrogant cause i always play with those well known Msia players something which i find it rather hilarious.. Are you jealous or something? Well.. those who understands me will know if it lidat.. =)

It's really funny how fate played everyone out, you might have known this person for a very long period of time but yet you never talk to him once but somehow after going through so much you realize he was the one you been searching for all this while..

How i wish everything wasn't so difficult but i guess everything is worth it just for you~ Its 1030am and i can't sleep cause i miss you so much =(

Good luck Inc, Nirvana.My , Mufc, XtC for later company..
Jia you ahh Nirvana.My ^^

Pissed off

2010-04-07T23:01:00.004+08:00

Woke up at the wrong side of the bed today and feeling damn wrong... Na jiu suan le..
Losing spree once again.. Na ye jiu suan..
Whole day already not much mood and i still saw certain things which makes me feel weird.. Na ye jiu suan le ba..

After i saw that nick i got damn pissed off.. I hate being accuse of things that i never done, seriously did you even ask yourself why did we ended up like that? Didn't u feel you have faults? I saw that log with my own eyes, i don't need others to tell me what i should do.. FYI I'm not a small kid who needs to follow what others tells me to do.. Get your facts right!

Fk your accuse and assuming when u don't even know a single thing..

For the pass few weeks i had been emo-ing, maybe slightly too much!? So if your here to irritated me just fk off.. I had enough!!
Thankfully enough i still have friends around to listen and cheer me up..

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO NAGI.JR AKA JUN RONG AKA S** + S** LOVERS + 1V1 Champ! Hehe!

Good Luck to Nirvana.My for the upcoming China compy.. Jia You oh!!

I just need you know!

2010-04-07T04:39:00.004+08:00

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now

Ooo, baby, I need you now

That's totally how I'm feeling right now..
Am i missing you too much?! That I'm slightly emo?
I hate the feeling of being left alone every night, how i wish you were there but guess not!?
Why am i thinking so much?! =( Cant help it which seriously sucks..
Arhh..

Lots of random thought running through my mind..
Is this for real or just another prank that's play on me..
There are lots of factor to consider, how i wish i could just hack care everything..
Somehow everything happen too quickly and it seems so unreal..
Time was something i always felt never enough..
Sometimes it might be something very small but it just meant a lot to me..

Tell me why do humans only cherish things when they lose it!?
Should i say I'm disappointed & sad?!
The feeling sucks big time..
I'm sorry I'm not good enough..

I just wanne get myself drunk 1 night! Seriously!

I just need you now~~~~~

Love!?

2010-04-06T01:12:00.011+08:00

Yesterday meet up with Easter & Sher for dinner at Geylang, food was nice especially the tofu although I'm not a tofu kinda person. The chicken we order was raw man so the person went to re-cook it for a long period of time till the meat is kinda overcooked~

After dinner went to Sher's lan [Level Up] to ton overnight although i'm quite tired that day but i enjoy myself a lot.. I love the environment!! so bright!! I was very full that night but Easter keep force me to eat with her.. Force =( damn poor thing..

Headed home in the morning and later on went out to shao mu so can only sleep while otw there and i dream of my grandfather, its been awhile since i last dream about him..

Reach home already afternoon.. Cui!

1. Certain things happen last night and i wasn't in the right mood to talk to you but never mind ba since you wanne assume things that goes your way then so be it ba.. I'm tired of it already..
I don't know what kind of xin tai i should use to face you even things might get back to how it used to be but it will never be the same anymore.
Perhaps I'm just not good enough for you..

2. I came to know about a certain person un-glam side and that seriously shock me big time coz i didn't expect him to be like that, how disappointing can 1 get. I didn't quite believe what others said about you but somehow my option towards you totally change.. The things you are doing now to me or even to others = disappointed + sucks..

3. Whether what you saying is the truth or just joking i suppose time will time.. Perhaps I'm kinda scared to know the truth that it's just all a joke.. What will the truth really be can you tell me?! How i wish you will read my blog lol.

Chuan: We know each other on the 05 Aug 08..
Me: wtf u still remember the date when we know each other..
Chuan: ya la somewhere around Sg National Day..
Me: ok 05 Aug 2010 we go out celebrate 2years kaes LOL!
Chuan: Still make me walk like dog go that evo find you all and eat LOL

Seriously i don't remember! =<
I miss the good old days of 2008 ~
Think of where to go on 05 April 2010 k LOL!

Thanks for being there for me every night to let me whine out my emo-ness if not for you i would most likely kisiao already.. Only when Xy come Sg ur his if not u still remain my gf k LOL!

It's really time to learn how to really be independent and to be nice to people around me.. How i wish you are here now but =( hais... I think you know who I'm referring to.. ^-^

Clash of titans on Saturday anyone!?

FmL.com

2010-04-03T04:23:00.003+08:00

A sudden urge to cry perhaps I'm just too emo but thanks a.h. for being there to accompany me & letting me whine out everything.. It may seems nothing but at that point of time i really needed you to be there.. xie xie ni oh!! But u fell aslp =(

Cant seems to remember when was the last time I'm truly happy and not acting like 1. I'm tired of trying not to act myself.. Wo zhen de lei le~
I no longer know what's happy anymore. Can someone teach me how to?!
Countless of emo nights have been spent alone emo-ing.. It's to the extend whereas i can't even game properly at all, usually when i'm down i would just play and recover after awhile but today i can't.. Seriously FML!!

I didn't wanne emo every single night the feeling damn sux u know!? but can i?! I don't know..

Finally tml gonna see my aiai hao xiang ta oh~

Yi Dian Dian Emo

2010-04-01T01:00:00.013+08:00

When certain things are said and the damage is done, its never ever gonna be the same again anymore. It's obviously something i dislike but yet you did it again.. It's not about forgiving but the hurt is already there.. I hate people not admitting their mistake and can still argue with you when obviously its their fault and yet apologies when the hurt is already done..

/ignore is the only way i can think of since she will be there for u.. It doesn't matter anyway..

I really hate the feeling of people emo-ing me for what i don't consider as a reason. Thanks to those big mouth seriously just stfu and get a life man..

Today losing spree, abit sad can but lucky i didn't lose alone.. HAHA!!

Koy aka xhz: i thought you younger then me.. LOL!!
But wo hai shi yao kan ni feed oh so i got excuse to post ur pic..
Wait u come sg kaes then we go drink HAHA!!
Then i can take ur vomit pic part 2..

Although i'm happy i have all the Piyo's but somehow hais.. Esther dying to do burn my Piyo's.. =(

Chuan ask me to blog about him so i decided to talk about 09 de chuan not 2010..
He's damn damn nice before the psk part..

- Wake up yi ding find me..
- Yi ding pei wo wan dao wo hen lei..
- Mo qi 100% now 1% LOL..
- Hui gei wo whine even dao hen jialat =/
- Hui pei wo yi qi ba gua =/
- Hui pei wo ma ren..
- Hui pei wo feed..

Now already ed.. LOL!
Ni hui bu hui jue de you dian nei jiu!?

I'm abit emo today & it sux when ur still sick =/ sucks!
so update a emo pic to go with it.. haha~
And
I actually miss Esther alot today =/
I just hope everything will be back to normal soon..

^^Fucking bitch

2010-03-29T17:10:00.007+08:00

I was a fool all this while being blinded by all sorts of lies.

Promise is something being said and forgotten the next min.

The same old thing just happen over and over again and i ask what's promise before? But yet tons of excuses to cover up the same old thing..

I know everyone have fault but yet what i hated most I'm sure you are more clear then anyone else but yet the same old thing happen.. How now?!

What if the guy or girl ask whether if you miss me?!

What if the girl told the guy she lost her virginity to this person!?

What if the guy talk so sweet with the girl & even wanted to eat her sia?!

What special "FRIENDSHIP" you guys have..

Wow!?

Fuck you bitch..

What if your bf knows about this?!

Good Job =)

No title Lol

2010-03-24T03:02:00.008+08:00

This few days had been sleeping rather early and the feeling is great when i woke up.. Happy ^^
1 week siansation of dota and abit of emo-ness and i finally found the reason to it and hopefully i will be able to minus away the sian-ness i'm having for dota.. Time to train and i hope i will be given a little motivation..

Actually i'm kinda lazy to update what happen few days back so just da gai da gai jiang yi xia..

- Compy @ Katong...
- Went out with Cass, Esther & Nirvana people for dinner & lan...
- 我发现即使有实力的team也是很sore的，人家在赢着也没有说什麼你们却讲那么多这只会显现出你们怕 Nirvana =)

It's hard for me to click well with girls but somehow we click so well, thanks for being there to listen and accompany me... It's been awhile since i last chat with a girl so much haha.. ♥ Esther

Thanks for the presents..♥ Pin Pin [The 1 in rabbit hat]
and
last but not least i miss my aiai..
Bu shi ta busy jiu shi wo busy =( I think she misses me lots too =x Hehe!
Catch up with u soon ok ♥ ♥

Dota mood is coming back.. Hehe.

Oh ya i just remember something..
有一个人很怕狗...
欺负我是吗？
Next time i shall exposed 看看你还敢不敢!! HAHA~
你永远都是 Burden 这是不会改变的事实!!
Hao Hao Take Care lor~

More pictures of Piyo!!
Bth damn cute!! ♥

2010-03-19T19:21:00.006+08:00

Yuan lai zai wo zui nan guo zui xu yao ren pei de shi hou
gen ben dou mei you yi ge ren zai wo shen pian..

Yuan lai yi lu yi lai jiu shi zhe yang..

Wo dong le..

Ye lei le..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KcsuMryFjss

This song best describe my feelings right now..

FML

2010-03-19T01:13:00.017+08:00

Actually i'm very down de then this epic chat happen.. [Part of the chat]

BBB A D mood ; says:
Lets dota

BBB A D mood ; says:
Gongzu dump me solo
u also dump me solo
pain also dump me solo

xGongZu- | fk up says:
U MIA SO LONG ! tu ran ask us dota
my turn ps u

BBB A D mood ; says:
i nv ps u ok

xGongZu- | fk up says:
u ps me like always
jia jia

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
PSK

r4yson says:
rainz psk

xGongZu- | fk up says:
everytime sae play hoN!
u ask rayson
HON SHI MA

BBB A D mood ; says:
now i come back acc u all lo

then he mass spam cry icons.. k continue...

xGongZu- | fk up says:
wo men bei shou shang hai

BBB A D mood ; says:
...

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
shou hai zhe

r4yson says:
all shou hai zhe

xGongZu- | fk up says:
haiss

r4yson says:
haizz

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
haixx

BBB A D mood ; says:
ya la ya la
u all win le

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
COME
LETS HON

BBB A D mood ; says:
....
if u guys insist
then i go install now

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
wa
delete hon sia
so rare

BBB A D mood ; says:
i got pawned by world no1 hon team
so i quit

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
already say
world no 1
u tink u world 1 meh

BBB A D mood ; says:
i din expect
so big gap ma
-_-`

r4yson says:
now u wan dota liao qiu wo men

BBB A D mood ; says:
kelian

xGongZu- | fk up says:
ps us

BBB A D mood ; says:
me now got 阴影

xGongZu- | fk up says:
de hou guo
bao ying!!

BBB A D mood ; says:
see dao sandking me wil scare

xGongZu- | fk up says:
...
u v lame

r4yson says:
zai lame yi dian

xGongZu- | fk up says:
wo kan dao ni de nick aso got 阴影 ying wei wo yi zhi xiang qi ni ps us go hon
how

r4yson says:
lol

BBB A D mood ; says:
..

BBB A D mood ; says:
fine ba
donwan force u guys

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
LOL

xGongZu- | fk up says:
i gona blog this
bth damn funni

r4yson says:
i oso wan quit dota liao

xGongZu- | fk up says:
i type i keep laff

r4yson says:
find me oso same
lol

BBB A D mood ; says:
i see ur fk up only entertain u ok
see i so good

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
LOL
he come back

xGongZu- | fk up says:
LOL
don jia jia

BBB A D mood ; says:
u nv appreciate.

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
u quit dota

xGongZu- | fk up says:
u come back we quit

xGongZu- | fk up says:
u nve apperciate us aso

xGongZu- | fk up says:
u ps us go hon
US SO MANI OF US
FOR SO LONG

BBB A D mood ; says:
-_-
where got long

xGongZu- | fk up says:
ke yi zai jiu yi dian de

r4yson says:
lololol

BBB A D mood ; says:
u guys jio i got come ar
just 30% come ma
dui bu dui
last time is 100%

r4yson says:
zuo

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
ke yi zai long yi dian

r4yson says:
ke yi zai hon jiu yi dian de

xGongZu- | fk up says:
ur 30% out of 1000%?

BBB A D mood ; says:
...
ok
u guys win
i ask nicely
give u all bully

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
gg

xGongZu- | fk up says:
its FACT LEH

YaNzHaNg - when i closed my eyes and drift away i think about you says:
he emo liao
xD

BBB A D mood ; says:
ok me ps u all

BBB A D mood ; says:
ok i go solo now
hf

BBB A D mood ; has left the conversation.

HAHAHA!!!

In the end we decided to play with him then he ps us.. WTF!!!

Jasmine ni ke yi zai sore yi dian de.. LOL!

Nagi i still waiting for u to draw!!!

Anw ytd Nirvana.My won Nirvana.Cn.. =)

Then nana draw this chicken cause im looking for people to draw then he jitao spoilt the cuteness of the chicken =\ Then i tell him too fat lor..

ANYONE WANNE DRAW FOR ME PLS!?

Then he draw this.. then i said too skinny.. Maybe i'm too choosy but still thanks Lol..A day out with the girls..

Recently i'm back to the kinda sian feeling of dota, can't seems to find the proper mood to play either i dono what i doing if not i will do some very random mistake LOL.. Must find some reasons to blame on =\ haha..

I'm so in love with piyo ever since i'm in primary school till now... Bth they are so cute.. Nagi is gona be so jealous!!

I just realise the gf is pina!!

I wan the pink + bee hat de..
I only got the froggy hat 1.. He need more frends!!
who wanne sponsor!! =X

emo hai shi emo

2010-03-18T00:24:00.005+08:00

Yi jin 1 tian hai mei sui le.. Ke shi pian pian jiu zai wo zui lei you zui sian de xin qing ran wo zhe mo bu kai xin.. Wo ling ke wo mei kan jian & mei du dao..

JUST SLEEP bu shi jiu mei shi le lo..

Wo duo xi wang ni hui dong wo gen ben bu kai xin..

Wo duo xi wang ni hui dong wo xiang ni pei wo..

Ke shi wo ser mo dou mei jiang..

Hai shi yi ge ren emo jiu hao, ke neng xi guan jiu hao ba..

Ming tian zai update ba zhen de hen mei xin qing..

2010-03-15T15:38:00.002+08:00

只能说一句难过. . .

The aura of sadness still lingers around. . . I'm trying to stay happy but i can't seems to find a reason to do so.. Perhaps its not about trusting anymore its more like what it seems to be logic covering the truth and its hard to believe what one said. . . Everything seems so weird now..

Lots of irritating people ke yi zai irradiated wo duo yi dian de lor. . .

- Annoying people who doesn't seems to know that they are fking annoying. .

- People who doesn't uses their brain whenever they talk. . .

- People who distort the truth and yet talk to you happily as if they knew every single thing about you..

Fk ya people.. Don't ask why if i ever block u..

Can u spot XIGZ-

hahahaha ~

Unhappy - Happy

2010-03-11T05:50:00.007+08:00

Hmm..

I slept from yesterday 3pm to 730pm and woke up for dinner for about 1/2hr and went back to coma from 8pm to 3am.. LOL.. pig-ed

I'm actually consider 1 of the luckiest girl but i only manage to realise it recently.. I actually have lots of wonderful people around me..

People who loves me..
People who will always be there for me..
People who go through all my nonsense..

but somehow i fail and at the same time i'm selfish that i only care about my own feelings..

Kai Xin Shi Yi Zhong Zui Ma!?

Don't know anymore what i should do!! My last words are said and everything perhaps was decided with the silence agreement.. Nothing was said so i guess everything ends it this way..

Don't ask me wtf i wrote..
I'm not gonna explain to anyone so don't ask..
I'm just expressing my thoughts..

STFU IF YOU KNOW NOTHING!!!

A recent photo of us..

The picture of us 2years ago..

Lastly: Game可以输，但人一定要杀

♥ Mao Mao

2010-03-07T06:09:00.008+08:00

Went for Cassy birthday bbq but was late coz i woke up late to make the jellies and had to wait for it to be harden.. =\ Sad lor didn't get to see xiang yu..

Everything was great.. HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY CASS.. Love
ahh thanks for preparing my fav food for me though not my birthday.. Ai ni.. Hehe
Poor cassy had to eat the super spicy sotong.. lol..
Let's just wait till their birthday & it will be revenge time.. LOL

The sotong that i ate with her.. fk the chillies.. LOL

Finally meet up with my aiai after such a long period of time and had a long chat with her.. she's always the 1 i love talking to.. Hehe..

Later on went to watch Hot Summer Days with him, the show was ok and later on headed for supper, love the chicken rice soup there though the chicken rice is nice but soup > all HAHAHA..

Thanks Jasmine for helping to get the gift.. Hehe REMB ASK ME DOTA K.. LOL...

Everything was simply great.. Love u all...

The Girls..

The Guys..

Currently at 650am 3 crazy gers including me suffering from insomnia, can't slp bu yong jin but all kisiao LOL!

Hmm some random thoughts..

I seriously dislike ren jia zai wo hou mian zuo xiao dong zuo.. Maybe the person didn't know i found out but when i knew it, the feeling damn zzzzzzzzz......

Outsiders who doesn't know a single thing yet love to kpo and give wu wei de comments, seriously just STFU, don't you have better things to do.. Who are you in position to give such comments when you know nothing..

Cheers.. am happy doing what i am doing now.. ^^ maybe i'm selfish in some way but basically i just wants to be happy.. Just so simple..

Love MAO MAO! woots

insomnia sux

2010-03-05T02:59:00.003+08:00

I'm finally sick!! Not sure if its a good or bad thing..

I'm suffering insomnia every night, its not that i don't wanne slp but i CANT seems to slp which seriously sux.. I always end up feeling irritated & emo when i woke up due to not having enough rest but i can't seems to rest well at home.. arhhhhhhhhhhh

I think i need slping pills.. seriously..

How i wish i can sleep and not just trying to stay awake with milk tea lol.. =( poor thing huh..

Ahhhhhhhhhh i hope tml will be a happy day for me but everything depends on you..

i wanne a puppy!!!! Can someone buy for me seriously lol.. I remember i once had a dog..

Fk up life....

PS: Click my ads <-

XXX

2010-02-28T06:44:00.003+08:00

Wow Wow Wow.. Why don't you even dare to bm infront of me sia?!

Just cause of a haha u assume i'm damn thick skin that i admit i'm pro.. lol? wow u understand me so well? haha.. Assume everything and pretend you understand me so well!

Don't know whose the 1 who likes to compare so much whose the pro still wanne act 1 humble like some angel? I have been keeping quiet all this while and now u wanne provoke me..

Oh well.. i just happen to miss arrows for that game yet ur so proud of it? so what if i miss at least i kill, don't tell me ur arrow 100% sia... Dare to show me ur potm without others smufing your account to play? U DARE? Well i guess i would seriously lol @ u..

I never admit i'm a pro but at least im way better then a noob like u XXX =)

Update

2010-02-22T21:30:00.024+08:00

Hmm.. gonna update abit today~

Went out with him to watch 2 movies.. [The Wolfman] & [All's Well Ends Well Too 2010]

The wolfman was rather disappointing, too much of talking and the fighting part damn sux.. I always love such movies but =(

This year All well ends well movie is simply great for those who love comedy like myself, had a great laugh.. Last year All well ends well movie wasn't that nice and i thought its gonna somehow be the same, even though that movie might be rather disappointing but i will still watch it cause of all those actors haha..

Watched True legend & 72 Tenants of Prosperity last week i think.. True legend is a must watch!!

Was browsing through the website and found my dream watch, damn nice!! Even the name chao cute "Baby Star Open Star Sea Baby Doll " and the price is even nicer lol, $7,700 USD woot!?

Time to stop dreaming Lol.. Another watch which caught my attention and I'm still wondering if i should get it ~~ damn nice leh.. =\ It's Juicy Couture de..

Valentine Day presents from him..

& ...

CNY = Gamble @ his hse + steamboat with friends + movies & etc.. I don't have any CNY mood this year don't know why ~~

Something really terrible happen yesterday and i hope everything will be alright.. God bless pls..

I came across some very nice scenery picture damn nice ~ enjoy *.*

Today i mean last night was mass chiong dota LOL really crazy.. All the games are even crazier but fun.. Can't get over the part when we reloaded at 12mins, i guess everyone went crazy esp me!! HAHA.. Sniper is my love once again! Wee?!

k lazy update le.. mei xin qing.. Bye

2010-02-11T08:13:00.003+08:00

Dang ni jue ding le zhe ge xuan zhe,

jiu yin gai yin zhe tou pi ye yao qu zuo,

wu lun dui zhi ji shi hao hou huai,

yi dan da ying le jiu yao zuo dao,

dou nan guo le 20 duo nian zhe ye bu suan ser mo..

hen duo ren chang chang gao shu wo yao kai xin dian ke shi wo bu hui hahaha...

random thoughts ~~

chinese bu hao kan de dong jiu hao, kan bu dong too bad LOL

2010-02-09T14:03:00.003+08:00

I was never happy doing this at all perhaps u might think otherwise, no one will ever understand perhaps u might just think that it's just an excuse... No matter what i do u won't believe anymore.. nvm ba~~

I'm sry i did something so wrong that even i myself can't believe i'm actually doing it.. lol? isn't it.. I have asked myself lots and lots of time if its worth it? Is it worth doing all this for the sake of attaining something..

I have lost something i have treasure most and yet its cause of my foolish act.. Haha maybe i should just laugh at myself that i deserved it, i just don't deserved to be treated nice since the day i was born.. as usual..

After all this years i seriously didn't did anithing wrong towards you but yet this is the first time that i did something so wrong and perhaps triggers everything off.. All i can say is that i can only blame myself..

When i realised that everything i did was wrong, i decided to stop way before u even found out but yet its just too late to amend anithing..

In this world nothing else really matters anymore, really nothing else after what had happen.. It's time to leave forever..

I just wanne say i'm sorry i never hope for anithing in return..
Just take care~
I will always love you~

Xt new Love

2010-02-04T16:45:00.001+08:00

s..h..e: wcg-Xtinct

xT new love

Emo dao luan

2010-01-30T23:05:00.006+08:00

Sooner or later I'm either gonna be emoified to death or turn insane..
It's a matter of time which happen first..

I slept 2hrs last night..
I woke up at 6.15am..
I go down to lose game at 830am..
The compy drag till 930 then start, waste my $ n time to rush down..
This This This emo me...

- I seriously hate those fking unwanted attention when its simply nothing at all, i just can't be bothered to xplain things around, for fk?! So the nxt fking person who does that GOOD LUCK is all that i wanne tell u.. Just mind your own business..

- I'm already damn tired, end up we needed to wait cause the compy drag -.- when its my turn to play i'm already so drained but after playing i feel damn happy HAHA damn weird 1 but somehow that happy aura doesn't last.. Somehow i feels that i wasn't playing well coz the opp is xT Haha pressure~~ but its so fun..

- I seriously hate the repeating feeling of people doing things or saying things that causes me to be emo.. I think my tolerances damn imbal le so don't cross over the line..
I'm so damn serious about it!!

- I always have the responsibility to make sure that everything is ok so everything goes well but yet i can't help to feel guilty if i failed to do it.. I somehow feels that its my fault.. Don't know la its getting more n more tiring doing this.. why can't it just not be me.. Zzz

- When i said something and i repeat certain things that I DON'T LIKE! I DON'T WANT! Then don't keep on insisting it will just pissed me off and don't assume things that u didn't even bothered to ask and make it up in your mind its like that.. Zzzz

- Somehow i feels that i can't take all this shit anymore i'm going insane, i just wanne run away from all this shit and just hack care every single thing.. WTB HAPPY AURA SERIOUSLY!!

I made 2 decision today..

Perhaps its up to a point whereas i should just delete your contact and stop all contacts with u perhaps its better for u this way whereas i won't be a nuisance in your life.. Things that i did perhaps is wrong but yet i hope only for the better haha maybe u just won't get it.. Nvm ba it's always being like that when i start to be nice to you.. Nvm it's just my fault... I should just learn to be independent perhaps?

Everything is kinda getting out of hand, I'm really trying very hard not to blow my top but everything just HAPPEN! Don't know ba I'm just tired of all this dramas.. How long more can i take it?! Perhaps u just blew everything to the extend whereas i feels that enough is enough..
Don't know ba~

I'm just a very simple person and all i wan is just a simple life but perhaps it may sound boring to others but I'm happy doing it.. Haiss but yet yue jian dan de dong xi yue nan de dao ba~~

K enough of everything must blog abit on today's schedule..

Play against little but damn happy although i didn't get to finger them at the very last part, kinda sad but damn fun..

Ate disgusting Kfc breakfast and feel full the whole day damn imbal!? Perhaps a good way to save $ HAHA..

People around me keep ask me to go eat like DAMN WRONG CAN!! haha..

Brought a couple handphone keychain with cassy and she damn wrong she talk to the lady and fail to understand what she's trying to say then she ask me to go over and ended up the lady speaks CHINESE!!!

And i just saw who is TMN! Tmn <3>

Little's game was nice and they are imbal!!

Actually i have the intention to train abit but when i rch Cas i jitao damn tired and the environment damn nice to sleep lor.. I jitao feed dao luan LOL, i know i will die then i still go do funny things, brain dead le but yet i'm not even emo just tired only..

Went off to eat with them and while otw home we saw this woman fell down i thought she might have slip or something but yet after a few mins she suddenly fell down again and somehow fainted or what DONO.. very scary, we wanted to walk over but yet lots of people crowding around helping her... May god bless her~

Aiyah fk care everything i just wanne play my dota and be happy ^^ who wanne be so nice to accompany me + support me HAHAH!!!

Last but not least Xtinct now CT liao jiu hen act then he just told me a mi mi he an lian net ke lian de xigz.. haiss!

emoemoemoemoemo

2010-01-22T22:01:00.006+08:00

Despite being friends or in a r/s for a long period of time people do changes, it might be a minor or maybe towards you its just nothing but yet that minor something might have cause hurt to the other party without you noticing it.. Somehow I'm experiencing lots of such feelings over and over again.. I hate it!! I'm someone that hate changes..

Sometimes i really hate being the middle person that zhi dao the most and yet can't help feeling so cb, i rather i don't know anything at all and perhaps i won't feel so helpless.. I just feel so $#^&%$#^&%#@ suxs!!

I'm back again playing till damn hardcore but most ke lian should be the one that pei me thru this, especially when that person already lost interest in dota.. lol. I'm thankfully i learn alot from you guys.. ^^ I think i damn pro now HAHAHA! k la jk ~

I don't know what's wrong with me, recently i'm back being emo for no reasons again and i hate it.. I hate being emo but somehow i cant help it, its like part of me telling me i should be emo maybe i don't deserve to be happy?! haha.. maybe~

Feeling really confused right now, i'm not sure what i'm doing now is right anymore.. I can't seem to think what i really want, can someone tell me how? Can't we have both of everything! Arhh i hate to make decision and that always happen to me.. FK LIFE!!! k maybe my life haha..

WTB HAPPY AURA!!

I ask myself over and over again is life better now or not?! I'm not sure anymore~

emoemoemoemoemoemoemoemoemoemoemo

who want join me form emo club and emo tgt? haha

-'_'- <- i think i should change my nick to this, chao cute!!

Emo & Dota

2010-01-21T23:57:00.013+08:00

EMO IS THE WORD!!!

Happy got lots of softies and flowers this month ^^ Love presents... Hehe

Seriously i think I'm insane i spend $20 on 10 packet of waffles and seriously its not enough I NEED MORE WAFFLES!! 1year plus mei you chi dao jiu shi so desp de lol.. Now left 7packet =(

Brain doesn't seems to be working, i can't remember what i did this few weeks.. =.=
zhen de lao le o~ lol

Although I'm really happy now but somehow i feel weird with something missing out in my life.. Somehow i wanne run away from everything right now lol.. don't ask me why.. i aso dono o~ maybe everything is so complicated now ba..

siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
emmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Wanne block psk soon v v v v SOON.. <- KAN DAO LE HOR!! Mushi SF FEED bu ran jiu shi lose.. HAHAHA

Love my piyo chao cute!!

Back to emo & dota..

2010-01-20T11:42:00.002+08:00

Mushi ask me update blog so i'm gona update abit deng xia zai update..

SF FEED

STORM ALSO FEED!

Lose aura x100000

i think sherica sF aso > his

HAHAHA!

Guilty TT

2010-01-18T01:05:00.003+08:00

Lots of blog about but yet my mind is completely blank for awhile..

K..

1) I somehow feels that i don't know you anymore, somehow feels that u are kinda cb like pretending so innocent when you already did something so -.- disappointed..

2) Why won't people clarify things when somehow i feels that its just misunderstanding and yet everyone just blame him.. I feel so unfair for him but yet i can't help a single thing -.- why won't they just clear up those misunderstanding instead of just blaming -.- hais.
Somehow i hope they know who i'm talking about and clear the misunderstanding..

3) Why can't we just play dota JUST DOTA instead of having so much of politics.. It's scary how people can change to be like that.. Maybe i should have expected this long ago but yet maybe i didn't know its so scary..

4) Sometimes scolding meant to be goood for you but yet i send out the wrong signal to others and its turn out to be something else, perhaps just disappointed that i wasted so much time on you =) but at least you learnt..

5) I gain back a really long lost friend for like 1yr HAHA i think u know who you are and i'm really very happy that we did talk things out to clear the awkwardness.. <3 i really cherish the friendship =)

I really wanted to say sorry and at the same time thank you for everything you have done, seriously i really hate myself for being so selfish. I just feel so guilty towards you.. I hope i can do something for you and thanks for your presents & flowers..

Everyone has been really nice to me, hoping that i'm happy but somehow i'm not happy TT cause im damn damn damn damn damn guilty.. TT

After knowing some stuff...
NOW I REALLY FEEL DAMN GUILTY!!!!!!
Damn emo...

Anw grats little for getting champ!!

i just wanne die now

2010-01-06T13:41:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile since i cry my heart out so badly and yet so painful.. Perhaps its dumb to make such a decision but yet maybe its better this way.. Maybe i might regret 1 day..
Wo de chu fa dian shi hao de i hope wo ke yi bao zhe, zhe ge xin tai yi zhi jian ci xia qu...

wo yi jing zhao bu dao yuan ben de kai xin le, ying gai yao zhe yang tai hui kai xin? wo hui, hui dao na ge yi qian de wo, na ge gen ben bu dong de zhe yang kai xin de wo..

Everything sux i just feel like dying right now..
How i wish i can just die now seriously..
It just hurts too much..

Pro Mushi

2010-01-05T13:00:00.002+08:00

Pro MuShI Sorry i noob!!

HAHHAHA

learn to <3 myself LOL!

2010-01-03T07:39:00.009+08:00

I hate myself for being so selfish..
I hate myself for being so inconsiderate..
I hate everything..

Sometimes i wish i could just disappear from this world so that i won't cause any misery to those whom i love & care.. Somehow i wish no one knows me..

There are people out there who loves to tell tales and made up stories as if they are the right one's but yet those dumb one's usually believes it and sad to say that's how rumor goes around.. It's just pointless getting angry/emo..

I have nothing against you but somehow i kinda start to dislike u.. Maybe!?

I just hope everything will goes well for me if not i mia HAHAH!

First time i got to agree with zibi kia, he told chuan " NI YE YOU JIN TIAN " LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL
Dont emo k chuan! hahaha!

I seriously dare you to say it in my face instead of being a keyboard warrior.. i guess you are just tooo hum to do that =) Oh well carry on being your humji kia k...

Happy New Year

2010-01-01T00:11:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2010!!

Celebrate the loser way for 2010 is to stay home, dota and countdown! HAHA
Nvm at least still got r4yson, nagi and tmn to accompany me so im not the only loser =X

Good thing is i won my first game for 2010 and emo for those who lose!! haha im damn mean!

Hope everyone will have great year ahead <3

xie xie ni o~

2009-12-30T03:49:00.003+08:00

It might be something small but yet brighten my day and bring back the smile that i had lost..

Thanks alot i really appreciate it.. =)

ke neng jiu shi zui jian dan de dong xi jiu hui ran wo hen kai xin le, ying wei wo yi jin wang le zhe mo zhen xi zui jian dan de kuai le..

Still thinking if 31st if i should go out!?

Hao lei oh ~.~

Jr Say Treat!

2009-12-27T18:17:00.003+08:00

Jr - says (6:15 PM):
bian gen hao ma
new year yao go eat ma?
i treat u and xl

xGongZu- | nagi.jr pian le haisss.. time to block ? says (6:15 PM):
jia jia
wtf
u sure anot

Jr - says (6:15 PM):
ya

xGongZu- | nagi.jr pian le haisss.. time to block ? says (6:15 PM):
ee
ltr u scam us
let us eat 1 pcs
bread
LOL
i think muz blog
big big
then remb!

Jr - says (6:16 PM):
LOL wont la

xGongZu- | nagi.jr pian le haisss.. time to block ? says (6:16 PM):
ltr U scam

Jr - says (6:16 PM):
me so nice
whr gt scam

xGongZu- | nagi.jr pian le haisss.. time to block ? says (6:16 PM):
eee
nice meh
ltr u go tere
let us drink water
LOL
self bring some more

Jr - says (6:16 PM):
LOL
i nt jj k
hahaha

Another Jr.com joke:

Jr - says (7:02 PM):
shui jiu piao liang/
let me tell u

Jr - says (7:02 PM):
chuan mei mei zui piao liang

ChuaN says (7:02 PM):
.

Jr - says (7:02 PM):
HAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHA

Hate Humans?!

2009-12-25T16:59:00.006+08:00

Seriously i hate being a human being..

Why doesn't human learn to cherish things when they possess it..

This few days u had been buying me lots of stuff from my favourite food to my favourite flowers etc.. Amusingly i used to whine at you for not buying any and u usually simply ignore it.. lol.. I know you did all this hoping to make me happier but yet you doesn't understand what i truly wanted..

It's not the present that touches me but the sincere i see in you.. I know you had been running lots of places to get all these stuffs for me.. Thanks i really wanted to tell you that..

Like today I'm sick you would travel so far just to buy me food but if we are still together that won't happen.. Perhaps being together for a very long period of time thing changes without you noticing it..

I'm not pushing all the blame on you but somehow that's what i feel, i know that I'm not a gd gf either.. I still hope you will be happy instead of emo-ing..

Merry Not So Xmas!!

Lastly..

I damn hate Mushi

Tmn Mi Mi

2009-12-24T15:40:00.008+08:00

Willis says (3:33 PM):
eh
christmas is
24th or 25th ar?
LOL

Willis says (3:34 PM):
i fking
forget
LOL

xGongZu- | says (3:34 PM):
25th
wtf
24 eve la

Willis says (3:34 PM):
k
LOL

xGongZu- | says (3:34 PM):
WTF

Willis says (3:34 PM):
i damn
blur
now
then keep thinking

xGongZu- | says (3:34 PM):
WTF u jus wake up or wad

Willis says (3:34 PM):
yea
just wake up

xGongZu- | says (3:34 PM):
I GONA BLOG THIS!
imbal

Willis says (3:34 PM):
OI
NO
NONONONNONO

xGongZu- | says (3:34 PM):
hAHAHA

Willis says (3:34 PM):
NONONONNOONNONOO
NO

Willis says (3:35 PM):
expose means no more fren liao la
=(

xGongZu- | says (3:35 PM):
LOL!

No more friend nvm xposed u can liao ^^ i still have 1 more mi mi of Tmn ^^
Willis = TMN aka TouchMyName

Mei you xin qing to do anithing at the moment ba hai shi jue de hen nan guo~ Mei you xiang dao ni jiang de dong xi hui ran wo zhe mo nan guo.. i should learn to hate u haha..

Good luck to Aeon.My for tonite adc oooo sry i dont support sg 1 haha ^^

http://as-x.blogspot.com/2009/02/spooky-genting-compilation-of-eerie.html

Thanks

2009-12-22T01:25:00.003+08:00

Thanks for buying me my favorite food & flower, you still know remember what makes me happy.. Maybe wo jiu shi yi ge hen rong yi 滿足 de ren.. But every time u have to wait till yi fa bu ke shou shi cai hui dong de dui wo hao.. Ke neng yi jing you dian tai chi le ba~

Ke shi wo hai shi yao gan xie ni for everything~

End...

xie xie

2009-12-20T15:18:00.005+08:00

I'm feeling alot better thanks to those who have trusted & accompany me thru this..
Maybe that's what i call real friends.. haha

You guys can carry on gossiping whatever u might have hear but i won't even be bothered about it, ying wei zhen de xiang xin wo de ren hui dong wo de..

Wo bu zhi dao wei ser mo wo mei ci xin qing hao dian le, you yao ku yi nong zhi ji emo.. haha.. zhen de chao guai de.. ke neng zhe yang wo hui hao guo yi dian ba..

Grats ooo Aeon.My jus win ta men de compy...
Mushi > everything.. haha ^^

Hao le bu xiang blog le~

Bye~

The End!

2009-12-20T01:25:00.003+08:00

This song describe how I'm really feeling right now..

Perhaps I'm really disappointed that you rather chose to be like any others who suspect me and at the same time assume things that never happen..

My world used to be only you and nothing else but as time passes by thing changes it doesn't seems to be like how it used to be.. Perhaps we both change without realizing...

Is this still love ?

Certain stuff like you scolding me in game is something i seriously cannot take it and u knew it very well but yet things just got worst.. You don't know how much it hurts..

Last~

I'm really tired of all the quarrel, tired of always being the 1 being who always cry...

Perhaps everything ends here le ba..

hardcore dota ftw

2009-12-18T12:37:00.005+08:00

Ben lai hen bu kai xin de ke shi ying gai hao dian le ba..

Ke neng yao man man xi guan zhe zhong gan jue ba..

Kai Xin de shi wo xue dao xin de dong xi, hao xiang hao jiu mei you xue dao xin de dong xi le.. + psk nve ps + wo you xin de lao shi + wo ke yi wan hui wo xiang yao wan de dong xi le ying wei you ren yao support..

Bu cuo shou huo hen duo & wo xue dao shi dou not duo LOL

ChuaN says:
and
duo not dou
LOL
DUO = MANY
DOU = DOU

ta mei tian dou gen wo jiang, hua yu bu jin bu shi jia de..

hao jiu dao zhe ~

Blog!

2009-12-15T00:30:00.006+08:00

FINALLY!!! finish doing my stupid blog TT but yet i forget what i wanne blog about -.- but i'm gonna amend abit more slightly later..

CHUAN AKA PSK NO.1 <- he ask me type something about him that's all i can tink about.. sad or ?

Anyway i'm selling this cuties for just $6 each..
Do leave me a msg if you wanne buy!! ^^

+.+ sad +.+

2009-11-18T23:55:00.003+08:00

I'm always looking forward to your off but yet becoz of 1 person being lazy u rather not take the trouble and yet simply just agree to whatever request.. It's not the first time already but i always gave in..

Sometimes i wonder how important am i to u or am i just being around too much for you to not feel anithing anymore? Maybe its just me who always looking forward.. With so little time around this mth i thot we would cherish it even more but yet it upsets me even more.. Did you even know?

I was so looking forward to going kittylab but i guess it simply just dies off..

To you i might be jus nothing but i still loves u..

2009-09-11T07:41:00.005+08:00

Lots of things happen for this past few weeks but yet i'm lazy to update =(

Went to Queenway few weeks ago to make ROL jacket with baby, gw, loy & his gf.. Will update the pic soon.. Nice.. ^^

Anyway im going to Perak at 10pm today and yet i haven pack, gg.com.. Anw i'm really looking forward to this trip cause i'm able to pei baby ^^ Heard that the place is kinda old school.. Shall update when i'm back!! ^^

Arhh hope my hair grow faster i wanne change back my hair style T_T

More dota for the meantime..

Sadly Nagi.jR leaving for ns in a few hrs time.. and yet today is 9/11 omg..

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2009-08-21T01:35:00.001+08:00

xGongZu- | FKING MSN LA says:
eh
who last
u find chuan

ChuaN says:
aww why me
asking pig
wait

xGongZu- | FKING MSN LA says:
who is pig
suxkura ?

ChuaN says:
ya LOL

ChuaN says:
got
PIG
LAI LE
天蓬大元帅

ChuaN says:
欢迎欢迎
LOL

I always have imbal dota mates!!

2009-08-20T04:50:00.002+08:00

xGongZu- | i lost the confidence in myself, i needed u to assure me.. | tired tired tired says:
pao Qu na li
muz be gai ren bao yang

Jr - says:
bu dong ke yi pao ni li jiu pao

xGongZu- | i lost the confidence in myself, i needed u to assure me.. | tired tired tired says:
shi bu shi in du ren ?

Jr - says:
no
bangala bao wo

Na yi ge Bangala yao bao yang Nagi.jr aka jun rong for 20cents..
Wo gai ni ta de email!
Leave msg at my tagboard for more details..

2009-08-13T22:27:00.004+08:00

I used to be v happy but not anymore..
I do not understand why do we have to quarrel over nothing...
I do not understand why is loving someone so difficult...

I just wanne be -
love
care
dote ------------------------ like how it used to be..

Why am i not the most important in ur life anymore..

So much for my happy ending..

2009-08-12T18:47:00.012+08:00

Something strange happen to me few days ago and i only told a few close one's what happen.. Thanks Mummy & Daddy for caring about my safety.. I love u guys..

Last week went to city plaza to buy clothes and I ended up buying lots of FOOD!! Haha.. sad to say i cant resist food =<

Sweet plums & Mango

I hate choc but this simply RoX, any of u guys remb this old sch cakie?? We brought 10 btw..

Sales @ Body Shop!! This is only just my portion lol..

Steamboat the next day.. C the greedy hand!!(It's not mine)

2009-08-12T16:21:00.002+08:00

I REALLY DON'T WANNE HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU EVER AGAIN IN MY WHOLE FKING LIFE!

Although its been years but yet u RUIN MY LIFE back then and yet you are back doing it again and its not the first time you are making me damn pissed off.. Fking ruin my life and act pity!! Fking cb..

Please Help!

2009-08-03T04:12:00.005+08:00

Nuffnang is organizing a charity fund-raise for this four-year old, Charmaine who has been cruelly diagnosed with Neuroblastoma.

As she is in the 4th stage of the illness, Charmaine’s chances of survival are bleak (10%-20%) if she remains in Singapore for treatment. But with the treatment offered in the U.S., she has a higher chance (40%-50%) to survive this ordeal.

However, the cost of treatment in the U.S is high, with the initial deposit coming up to $500,000SGD.

A life is precious and you can’t put a price to it, she's just 4years old girl please help by donating if you can even your contribution may be small but it will definitely make a difference..

Let's pray for her!! <3

♥ Charmaine <-- [To make donation]

asdasd

2009-08-03T04:00:00.010+08:00

Bake 2 durian cakes and kueh pisang the whole afternoon with my mum.. The results were good, I'm gonna try to make ondeh ondeh next week!! <3

I miss my school =(

A video not to be miss!!

and

something interesting:

Jr - says:
wdf
20cents

Jr - says:
T_T
i cost 20cent only

Jr - says:
LOL
u say 20cent jiu 20cent

xGongZu- | Anyone wanne buy Jr for 20Cents ? says:
wa lidat
i buy u
then sell u to indian

Jr - says:
nvm indian
my best fren

WHO WANNE BUY SLAVE?!! Pm Nagi.Jr for more details..

2009-07-30T08:43:00.014+08:00

Finally gotten another chance to being able to play compy with baby but yet at the same time feeling really stress out, haven been playing my role well cause kinda like last min then train!! Lol..

Although we join this compy purely for fun but i love being in a guy's team coz i always tends to learn something new..

Sat -

1st game was against Nam & friends and we nearly lose as both side was throne-ing and JJ manage to tp back to hex Potm!! Seriously damn exciting i thought we gona lose.. Anw this game made me realise how to play my support even better lol.. =)

2nd game was against team SEXTA if im not wrong, the opp down our 6 towers within 20mins and jj dc. Sadly after a long period of arguement the Marshall decided we should continue [4v5] na jiu suan le but during the agruement 1 of the rsc staff touched the com and leaving us with 3v5 so its impossible to play..

Again another long period of agruement starts, we let them have 6 towers without def-ing and killing them but yet they insisted on having everything the same which seriously is impossible de ma.. List of everything the same below:

- Towers
- $$$$$$
- Hero Kills
- Items

Wasted 1hr+ agruing with the marshall and opp when others already ended their 2nd game, in the end the marshall decided 10mins ffa and within 10mins if any towers are down means its ours/theirs and after 10mins if any heros down the towers will consider Dq but yet we have to give them 6 towers without def-ing and killing them..

Basically its jus a 1 sided game seriously wasting everyone's time and while we were told to be seated for the next game this bunch of kids when off to complain again saying its unfair and stuff lidat so we have to rematch with them and its fking 5pm already.. Jj gtg so i play for him and somehow i kinda feel nervous perhaps i didn't use wL for a long period of time le but its another 1 sided game.. <3>

Fking tired and wasting of everyone's time.. so noob still wanne act as if they can win, i didn't feel like bm-ing those noobs until what i saw on forum.. This noob team insist that they are tired and emo already so they anyhow play lol? Why bother to waste everyone's time to ask for a new game? Seriously noob jiu shi noob u don't have to lie to urself.. 1 game rm and 1 new game and the results are VERY CLEAR that's its 1sided, not enough chances given to you losers?

If you are skillful enough you don't need such loser excuses to show everyone how sore you guys are.. We jio u guys sidebet aso don't dare then this fking loser still type so much.. What a joke.. Seriously we dare to take the price money x1000 u dare anot LOL.. Free money ftw!!

3rd was against doug & frends.. We won that game as well and went off to eat dinner with gw and later on head back to watch ks vs razer lol.. Really a nice game to watch as i did learn alot but yet sometimes i jus wonder why top teams can do such things we cant =\ aww Lol..

Sunday-

We were playing against xGn and trying out this strat but sad to say it cant work on us so we lost.. JJ call us and say he can play as we didnt expect him to being able to book out so they pk team Mit, Alice, Ks & Axis.. Rol really put up a tough fight against Axis it's like a bo game.. I didnt' expected them to play so well as they never train and have quit competitive for a long period of time le.. Some more not full team ^^ I can't remember when is the last time i seen them play so seriously le.. Anw that game was good.. Went for dinner and headed back to watch the finals..

Somehow i miss the old Rol with all the fun & laughter.. Lol..

Grats Ks for clinging top for DVG!!

During the break in between baby and i went off to catch soft toys!! We spent less then $20 to catch 15 bears.. Imbal <3

The funniest thing was we can choose the soft toy we want in the shop and ask him to put in the machine for us to catch!! I'm so going again!! HeHe

The rest of the days was slacking at hme, going out for dinner and mass playing dota!! Damn sad lor baby scam my ice age & Hp till now haven watch.. Scam so mani movies!! I wanne go catch again =(

I have never expect the unexpected though i was kinda inform but yet i never hope its true but at the same time we can start everything fresh again.. May the best wins!! Anw lots of work to start on!! Lazy me finally got some motivation to finally do things that i have been slacking..

Mark my words ^^

Catch of the Day~

<3

Baby fave noodles

Cakie

<3 Archies

Moody

2009-07-21T04:33:00.003+08:00

FINALLY CAN!!!!

I have finally redo my blog after dragging for such a long period of time but i have a few more stuff to add on..
The more i quarrel with u the more i hate Dota..

Shall update another day..

Sucky mood jiu shi mass dota le =(

2009-06-05T22:40:00.004+08:00

Fri -

Baby came to fetch me and we went to buy the usual baobei, wanton and large prawns to cook.. Ended up both of us slept only 2hrs and headed down to G.H for training.. Played 2 games and went to meet up his friends at the bat kuet teh shop, finally i'm able to eat liao then they tell me NO MORE.. Zzz.

Went to eat burger king and i ate the kids meal LOL cause i don't like burgers but nvm got free toy but the toy ugly lor.. Meet up the rest and headed down to 1 of the Boat Quay pub.. Didn't really enjoy myself as i don't really like such places so slack n chill till 4am and head home..
Hate the smoke.. Despite having to bath so freaking long my hair still smell of smoke even my make up stuff =

Sat -

Cook sambal sotong and dota!

Tml compy le.. arhh jia you!

I still wan my bat kuet teh & CRAB! =( i miss crabby!!!

+.+ Tue +.+

2009-06-03T02:51:00.003+08:00

Past few days was staying at baby's house..

Fri -

Both of us didn't sleep and headed down to Expo for the food & book fair..
We brought:
- Curry Veg with Fish ball
- BBQ Squid
- Shark fin Soup
- 3 packets of nuts/peanuts

I'm finally finishing my last bite of curry and it spill on my shirt.. ZzZz white de some more -.-

I have been yearning for the Romance Of The Three Kingdoms books for a long period of time and baby brought it for me!! Thanks sweetie.. Brought another 2 'N' level books for my bro and chips before leaving.. Q-ing Sucks!

We reach home at about 6pm and intended to meet his friends around 7+as both of us don't intend to sleep but yet drag until 8 eventually i fell asleep -.- Went off to fetch his friends before heading down to Chomp Chomp!

Baby ordered: (Almost all my favourite hehe..)
- 2 Oyster with egg
- 2 Sambal Sotong
- 2 Sambal Stingray
- 1 Potato leaves
- 1 Da Tou
- Satay
- Sugar Cane

After eating they were chatting away but yet none of them feel hot! wtf lor hot like fk yet they still can chat for hours?! Headed down to TM to watch Terminator, the show was petty good & exciting but can u imagine baby fell asleep thru out! Again lor.. watch NATM also fell asleep.. Pig sia..

Sent them home..

Sat/Sun -

Slacking at home.. Intended to watch movie on sunday night but he scam me lor =( i wanne watch my monster vs aliens de..
End up we went to buy Sotong, Fishballs and Wantons to cook..
More Sambal Sotong pls..

Mon -

Waited for him to be back from his camp before heading out with his friends to Bedok to eat imbal curry!! We ordered Curry Fish Head and Curry Veg!! Later on went to eat durians damn exp la 1kg $10, his friend brought 2 = $42.. Like tio scam sia but at least its tasty lor.. Went down to Geylang to collect some stuff from his frend and tmd de we got lost lor, drive around so many rds.. Drag till 12am then reach home.. lol

Tue -

Woke up when his back from his ippt and went out to buy bao bei and fishball for our instant noodles and my fav soup.. Rush home to cook, prepare and eat! Jitao rush like mad lor.. Can't even eat in peace, baby was really nice to send me down despite having to rush back to camp ltr on.. Love him so much.. Don't feel like talking about the training..

I wan my CRAB CRAB! I'm refering to Kuishinbo btw lol.. =( CRAB!

I'm going to re do my blog soon..

2009-05-26T03:22:00.005+08:00

Seriously I'm freaking lazy to update my blog..

Well.. life have been more or less the same yet i'm still unable to get the mood back to dota! Somehow i feels that there are more things to do instead of just dota-ing..

Perhaps i have finally woke up from dreams and soon its time to be back to reality.. Maybe then i will feel that i'm living my life instead..

I guess i might quit compeitive once Wcg is over, jus tired i guess..

Anw we went to Jp on sat wanted to buy the tix for NATM2 but the Q like WTF maybe there are more then 20+ ppl q-ing! We wanted to buy the 9+ de but already red liao can't imagine when its my turn cfm no more le lor..

Later on headed to Kuishino my fav buffet ^^ and ate mass salmon fish and crabs but mei you sweet clams =( arhh i wan more crabs =\ tio scam and left at 730 damn sad lor.. Hope we gona go again SOON!

Headed down to AMK to buy ticket, mango ice and durian pancakes!! Gona somehow learn how to make the pancake lor cb so exp $1.50 when the cost price isn't that much, yeah i know + their etc fee its abt there haha..

NATM2 was really nice, i don't mind watching it over and over again though i didn't watch the NATM1.. The show was really funny & can u imagine baby fell aslp thru out the whole show!! Let's go watch again or ? lol

So much things i wanne do during his off

* Prawn-ing

* Visit Farms

* Terminator Salvation on the 28th

Baby, i just wane you to know that i love you, all i'm ever asking you is simply to shower me with more care & attention..

Love you always!!

I wan my crabs, books and $ for clothes =( if someone can sponser me!!

+.+ Fk +.+

2009-04-15T02:33:00.004+08:00

How disappointing when your words and action show differently..

You told me to trust you yet what did you do to ensure my worries?

You told me you don't like such ying chou yet wad time le ?

You bu hui chi yu de mao when the fish is right infront of you ?

When you are with SUCH PEOPLE?

Nice.. how u wan me to believe ? Tell me lor..

I forget to add something in..

Stop fking ask me why i ban h3art i don't even remb he destory my item or watever i only remb he fking noob so stop asking tat stupid qns...

+.+ Sux +.+

2009-03-16T23:41:00.004+08:00

Haven been blogging recently cause there is seriously nothing much to blog about..

I just don't know why my temper have been getting from bad to worst perhaps from all the quarrels and sleepless night adding on to those noobu pubs making me more pissed..

Sometimes i didn't really mean it that way its just that i just can't control my temper -.-"

Anw things between the both of us didn't get any better even though we are still not tgt but yet things seems to be even more worst then before.. That's why memories are always beautiful..

Gonna be back playing competitive but i haven even started training on my own heros =\ arhhh sux...

XIN QING ZHEN DE HEN BU HAO!

Updates :

Yeah i know you guys must be thinking so mani soft otoys?! wtF? 2/4 of the sft toys occupied my bed!!

Flowers seriously cheer me up but its not the colour i want =\

Oh ya something happen when i was otw to IMM, ya i know my hands damn shaky =D sry! Anw we have to walk on the MUD!! which i didn't knew it until i was half way TMD! Ended up i have to go home and wash my feet before heading out -.-!?

+.+ SUX +.+

2009-03-12T02:09:00.003+08:00

I hate girls who are so fking attention seekers..

So what if you are a girl? -.-

Since you like the attention of all the guys why not tie them up and make them all urs =)

+.+ life sux +.+

2009-03-09T09:59:00.002+08:00

Recently there are so much of happening around me but sad to say most of them are unpleasant.
I made a decision perhaps i really wanted a break from everything.. I'm tired really tired...

We have known each other through games and had been tgt for a yr plus, i have to admit i'm lucky to have met you and i have no regrets at all.. Thanks for everything.. For now i jus needed some time for myself to seriously think through what i really want.. I'm sry that we ended this way..

Well mood was really fked up and ended up slping 3-4hrs once again -.-

Tell me what should i do to make myself happy!?

+.+ Emo +.+

2009-03-06T15:59:00.003+08:00

Went out on Wednesday with xL, BeiBei, Dtjk & Nagi to ton at networms.. Petty weird cause i didn't seen them before expect for xL, so the whole nite i'm like talking to xL nia haha.. Didn't really know what to talk to them about...

Wasn't feeling really happy cause we quarrel again..

We've been together for nearly 2yrs and knowing each other another 1 yr that makes it 3yrs but why are things getting from bad to worst compare to the past.. I miss the days we used to be so happy together but now over game or small stuff we would quarrel.. I'm really tired of quarrling over such things..

I wanne let u know that i still love you but i just don't understand why are things getting worst, sometimes what i needed was simply your care!! Haiss

Felt so emo after typing all this..

Sux

+.+ hugginfire +.+

2009-02-21T06:45:00.001+08:00

I just happen so to alt tab back and saw this in ggc channel:

[06:07:48] huggingfire3 u know
[06:07:50] huggingfire3 theres horny girls
[06:07:53] huggingfire3 IN ASTERISK
[06:08:40] huggingfire3 really lqa
[06:08:41] huggingfire3 la
[06:08:44] huggingfire3 u can go find out who
[06:08:50] huggingfire3 they are even lesbians
[06:08:59] huggingfire3 no is the
[06:09:03] huggingfire3 PMS-nyx
[06:09:05] huggingfire3 that clan
[06:09:11] huggingfire3 got a few ......
[06:09:45] huggingfire3 i bm asterisk she nvr say anything

This joke claim that he have evidence!!

2009-02-20T04:42:00.008+08:00

Time to updateX some piCs..

Let's start off with Cutie Gui/Mao^2:

Baby name him Cutie Gui cause of his imbal cap

Valentine Day:

Well didn't went out on the actual day as he was having duty so we celebrated on the 15th..
Went to Vivo to Eat and slack.. Wanted to buy new rings but yet all is just wedding bands so EXP!! arbo jiu shi ugly de
Nothing much actually...

Cucumbers all Gone !!

Present:

Lazy anyhow take i know its damn ugly..LOL but that's my V.day present for him but then he eat 1 pcs nia and the others was eaten by his family & relative!! so much for the effort to do until 1am+ T_T
But then i still have some more left at home!! Who Want? lol!!
Btw its CoCoa & Chocolate Chips Cookies...

SteamBoat:

Had steamboat with my family last week

Anw i'm thankful for cheering me up =) even though it might be nthing but that helps alot

+.+ Emoness +.+

2009-02-20T04:28:00.002+08:00

I'm not sure how am i trying not to be sad trying to hold back my tears..

I love you baby but what's happening to our r/s..

I feel so hurtful seeing things end up this way...

I just wanted to talk to you nicely but why do things always end up this way..

Baby u know we are tgt almost 2yrs le but why are things isn't the same anymore..

I just want you to know that no matter what happens in the future...

I will always love u...

+.+ sad +.+

2009-02-08T03:52:00.004+08:00

Well i wasn't happy for the past few days so don't ask me why... Perhaps that's why i'm easily pissed off over small stuff and ended up scolding people.. I tried my best to pretend im happy but i can't.. Fk life!!

Being in a r/s for too long realistic came first more then being romantic i guess.. I just miss those days but then its all just sweet memories now... That's why r/s are the hardest thing to manage

I'm sry i hang on you but seriously i just can't find the right mood to talk!!

Just don't pissed me off whoever it is =)

+.+ Blog +.+

2009-02-06T05:06:00.003+08:00

Maybe suay suay Nagi will click my blog so...

TML WE WILL CONTINUE TO BULLY YOU !!

Dedicated to Nagi & Bullet (Forbidden Love)

+.+ SIAN +.+

2009-02-06T00:15:00.003+08:00

Went out to P.S with baby ytd and catch 2 movies, love matters & All well ends 2009.. Well all well ends wasn't so nice but funny lol and love matters was way nicer then the previous movie..

Was kinda disappointed that i didn't manage to get my chix and sushi but baby brought his snacks and sneak in to the threatre.. lol.. Sit till my butt hurts and yet we have to hurry off to the next movie lol..

Tabao Staty and fishball soup back and watch him play his match while i'm eating.. We brought 15 statys but i bu zhi bu jue finished 10 -.- and i finished all the fishball expect for his shrooms, i'm not selfish oki3 he doesn't like fishball and i hate shrooms lol..

It makes me wonder why am i feeling rather bored and yet kinda upset!! BORING!!
Nothing much to expect this month... sian sian sian

Maybe i should sleep?

+.+ RETARDED +.+

2009-02-05T05:40:00.002+08:00

FKING HATE NOOBS!!

cb bu shi sha bu dao jiu shi i die, fk sia everytime lane with them cfm emo like fk -.-

Already fking pissed off yet still wanne do stupid things to make me more dulan, i'm fine with it if i'm not emo.. Seriously la u all go try lane with noobs then u know the cb feeling..

FKING RETARDED!!

+.+ LOSERS +.+

2009-02-04T05:05:00.004+08:00

I have already asked my frends to play tgt from the start and there isn't any slot left for you yet u still wanne whine, just because u thought that it was an inhouse game and that u fking went btm with pub and lose.. YOU WHINE!!

I know i have known you longer then any other online frends i know and I'm already trying to be nice talking to you yet u still wanne pissed me off, those that join majority are my frends then how? So fking scared to lose then go create 5 acct after 3mins Dc la losers..

Fking hate such people!!

Oh ya baby was scare by his senior while he was on phone with me.. He told me there a video lets c if i can upload it when i get my hands on it =p

Anw was nerding badly todae sry Nagi lol

+.+ BORING +.+

2009-02-03T05:05:00.006+08:00

Dono what gotten into baby today he msg and called me but yet feeling emo without telling me why.. Haiss bu zhi dao la!!

Anyway lots of people bai tian kong today i suppose but this random guy did this:
although it seems abit weird doing this today but yet it still romantic lol..

I miss baby alot~ Looking forward to our plans on wed!!! <3

Recently been dota-ing alot at night and i'm glad im not playing pub alone anymore, i just can't stand pub!! Sometimes they do "IMPRESS" me with their uber strong skill!! Enuff is enuff!!

Dono to sleep anot damnnnnnnnn sianz T_T its like 930am now!!

+.+ CNY +.+

2009-02-01T23:15:00.009+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!

Reunion Dinner

Reunion dinner was great cause its my fav steamboat and what's more lots of my fav food!! It sux badly when i still have to continue to pack after dinner but it feels great getting everything done nicely for the year =D
Watch tv with my bro till 2.30am and went off to compy baby to dota but then i'm simply too tired to concentrated!! Feed again =\ aww!

1st Day

As usual went to grandma house and rot for the rest of the day but then this year was slightly better as i'm able to bring along my lappy along but then after playing 1 game, seriously it just fked up my mood.. HOW BAD CAN PUB GET!! Arhhh!!I simply can't imagine if they are sitting right beside me, i would have just slap their face and ALT QQ for them lol..

Dinner was something to look forward too but then this year steamboat was prepared by my aunt instead of my mum, well the soup sux big time tasted like sugar with water.. I was like whining as im a soup lover lol.. No matter how much my mum tried to fix the taste it sux big time lol..

The worst had yet to be told as usually after dinner we would go down to Chuan Dao He Pan (if i didn't spell wrongly) but this year tio scam!! Having to walk so far with my blister legs and yet when we reached there its just 1 big stage with some stores selling food.. WTF?!
Normally there would be quite a lot of stores to shop around.. Ahh just fking waste of time!! When to q for my durian pancakes and head home..

2nd Day

As usual baby came to my house to bai nian before i head over to his house.. Although i always feel weird having to bai nian with his relatives even though its the 2nd year already but then i'm just not used to people with big families.. Went over to his aunt house and ate our dinner before baby start his gambling.. Play for like hours and we won about 200+

3rd Day

I went home early as baby gonna book in soon, though he wanted me to stay but nah it feels weird being alone at his house..

4th Day

Went out with baby to P.S saw cassy, jasmine and xg and cassy told me the wedding game wasn't nice but then i wanted to watch all 3 cny movies anw but then there was only enough time to watch 1 so we went to watch the wedding game lol.. Wasn't too bad lol..

No choice baby wanne gamble.. He call up his cousins and asked jj, loy and kaka to came over too.. Well we all lose lol.. Baby cousin always so lucky de, baby told me he won a total of 2k for the whole Cny lol.. Anw loy head home first so the rest of us went down to eat laska and head home.. Sadly jj and kk walk home to bedok!! GG?!

5th Day

Head home and had Yu Sheng with my family.. Arhh Valentine Day baby got to work and unable to take off..
Nothing much to upload so upload some of my pics nia..

This is what i do when baby is slping lol

Imbal Drink

X`MAS

2008-12-26T01:25:00.002+08:00

Was freaking sick for 2 days!!

WTF LA!! Xmas lidat pass le =(

SAD..

+.+ ROL CAPL CHAMPS +.+

2008-12-22T01:28:00.003+08:00

GRATS TO ROL FOR CLINGING THE CHAMPION TITLE FOR CAPL OPEN!!

Went down quite late today as i slept at 8am and woke up like 12plus!! By the time i went down they are gonna play their 3rd game already.. Oh ya i bluff baby i'm not coming down but i did.. Surprised!! Surprised!! HeHe =)

Seriously i was really impressed by how they played it's just like the old ROL just that xL was replaced by Ken this time round.. Having just reform and really limited time to train, they really did very well for this CAPL..

During the final which was really exciting but at some point of time i thought they were losing but yet they always have their way to turn things around, lets hope things will get better and better for them as Hengky is back!! Time to Own or? lol

Grats once again!! 3cheers for ROL!!

After the whole compy we went off to watch IP Man without Ken as i suppose his dying without having any sleep since last night lol.. Went to eat KFC b4 our show and i guess zp is like a little bro to Hengky and myself lol, must take care of him which he always seems to be mistreat by JJ and Loy lol..

Anyway i'm really glad zP's back!! So don't fking MIA again or u die!! Cartoon Network!! Whoo

IP Man is a must watched for those who really like action movies!! MUST WATCH!!
Lots of movies to watch for this coming weekend!! Bedtime Story and Yes Man!! etc...

Best Quote of the day from ROL : One amazing thing happened: loy, our team's famous whiner, said the following words: chill leh, can win one. don't stress.

2nd Best Quote of the day from JJ : Zp = Cartoon Network
( Those who was there during the final should know lol)

Was really v.happy today:

- Finally saw Sher and Baby (Very Ke Ai)

- Finally meet up with Dar after so many days of missing him

- ROL clinging Champ For CapL

- Wonderful time spent with ROL

- Dar having a long holiday

Hmm.. X`mas coming soon and yet we haven decide where are we going for our count down!!

Last but not least for any more updates or information abt ROL do visit [Zepee]

+.+ Good luck RoL +.+

2008-12-21T04:09:00.007+08:00

Have been really lazy to blog lately..

Anyway i came back earlier from Genting cause its like too boring?! I seriously rot on the 2nd day!! I'm not a fan of those theme park stuff so it can be quite boring.. Well.. the lan there was freaking exp like 15rm per hour!!!

Not much just that i miss Hengky alot!!! Kinda sort out my thinking, i guess this is the best ans =)
I know u miss me lots too..... HeHe..

Was kinda busy today so didn't went down Capl to accompany him but yet still thinking if i should go down tml to support him like i usually did.. See how things goes ba..

Still having a major make over for my room!! so.. will still be busy then..

Last but not least...

Good Luck RoL =)

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I love you Hengky =)
I wan my care bears T_T

I nearly forgot to blog about this:
Whether you are free or busy do visit [Zepee]
Imbal xiao didi blog damn happening... His the famous zP aka cardboard.. =p

+.+ Heart Break +.+

2008-12-04T01:08:00.005+08:00

My Heart is confused..

My Mind is controlling my emotions..

I dono what i want..

Why do things changes..

Why do gers always compare.. I hate it but i can't help it..

And I'm sick right now..

CAN SOMEONE JUST GET ME OUT OF THIS MESS!!

I FEEL SO AWFUL!! MY HEART FEELS LIKE ITS BEING SHATTER INTO MILLION PCS!!

I wish i can go back to the past.. Can I ?

请告诉她我不爱他

笑著难过自我惩罚

想终止这一切挣扎

横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她

恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口

就让沉默代替所有回答

|| x|aO xGongZu- Little DiaRy™ ||

Lost

Kept me thinking..

Blank

Dead blog back !

6th November is the title !

Quit Quit Quit !!

Weekend

Tired of all the nonsense

GOODBYE EMO WELCOME HAPPY!!

Arghhh

June ~~

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Anti- missing pills

TT

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=)

o.o

Random

Bu zhi dao wo zhi dong wo ai ni

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Weird

^-^

The last straw

^-^

Pictures speaks a thousand word

sux!

Happy wee~

:'(

The last time~

=(

Pissed off

I just need you know!

Love!?

FmL.com

Yi Dian Dian Emo

^^Fucking bitch

No title Lol

emo hai shi emo

Unhappy - Happy

♥ Mao Mao

insomnia sux

XXX

Update

Xt new Love

Emo dao luan

emoemoemoemoemo

Emo & Dota

Guilty TT

i just wanne die now

Pro Mushi

learn to <3 myself LOL!

Happy New Year

xie xie ni o~

Jr Say Treat!

Hate Humans?!

Tmn Mi Mi

Thanks

xie xie

The End!

hardcore dota ftw

Blog!

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